Say anything not know wat say

[CTB Dream]

Yea brain no work numb feel wabt sleep all day feel tired no work brain wat do wat do feel die all day thiss all awful, non sensi wrld unvrs betray me ,this now all callous f ñ do awful now me all lose vege potat no able do any, now 0 owr even small thing try do hard. Wat do no know, only dream ctb leave awful wrld leavall, feel

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Yea brain no work numb feel wabt sleep all day feel tired no work brain wat do wat do feel die all day thiss all awful, non sensi wrld unvrs betray me ,this now all callous f ñ do awful now me all lose vege potat no able do any, now 0 owr even small thing try do hard. Wat do no know, only dream ctb leave awful wrld leavall, feel

For some reasons SN is not an option for me so I wish I had a peaceful method to escape from this world, too. One day I even swallowed poisonous substance in my dream. I felt so good. It was liberating.
I woke up and immediately disappointed... It was just a dream... CTBing is hard, especially when you can't think clearly.

Based on your posts, the possibility that your situation improves seems to be slim and it's unfortunate but anyway I wish you the best luck

 

[charlotte_]

I'm so sorry life had been so unfair with you. Being alive, at this point, feeling like a constant battle between you and this flesh jail you're put into. It really is horrible that we cannot leave this world the way we want. I don't know what to tell you, other then getting some rest (which you probably done already). I hope your situation will arrive to its end soon, peacefully.