Venting Rough work day

[Gabbi_Station]

Came home from a really bad day at work and my sister started in on her "be nice" teasing lecture that is always passive aggressive and I have repeatedly told her makes me feel like shit and like she's always implying that I am an unpleasant person…

Honestly every time I sit there and think- "I could just cbt myself tomorrow and never have to hear it again"…

Honestly I am just feeling so done with everything anymore and debating about ending it. I am done with family. Done with my job. Done living a really crappy life and feeling like everyone makes me feel like shit and I can't even come home and relax without feeling bad

 

[Deepdense]

Probably the best thing to do is just ignore her like she isn't there. If she isn't the type of person to let that happen then my only other solution I can suggest is to just start crying. Depending on your pride it might be difficult, but it's effective at showing you don't like something.

 

[Gabbi_Station]

Probably the best thing to do is just ignore her like she isn't there. If she isn't the type of person to let that happen then my only other solution I can suggest is to just start crying. Depending on your pride it might be difficult, but it's effective at showing you don't like something.

Yeah the problem is that I blow up and get angry typically instead of crying… which she then uses as proof that I am the problem/not being nice.

Honestly I just wish my everyone would leave me alone… I just hate being around my family anymore. It just somehow always manages to make me feel even worse.

I tried to move out… but I got spooked about renting a place after recent events… scared the economy would crater. And frankly- I am just tired. I feel so burnt out and miserable, that the idea of moving… of commuting two hours to and from work everyday …. is just too much anymore.

 

[gasforme]

Family is overrated they cause so much harm

 

[InevitableDeath]

move out. There's no cure for being a cunt

 

[Gabbi_Station]

move out. There's no cure for being a cunt

Idk- the place I was approved for was 53% of my income going to rent (not including utilities) and I turned it down after the recent Venezuela thing I got scared that the economy won't hold and I didn't think I could honestly go back to scraping by again.

The other place I looked at was cheaper and more in my price range, but zero amenities, smelled, and frankly didn't seem very safe…

Both places would be a two hour commute from work.

I am just feeling really demoralized. Like no matter how hard I try to fix things…it somehow just always ends up worse.

My last apartment before moving back in with my sister was horrible- the guy I leased it from had insomnia and would play video games loudly all night (screaming…talking on a headset.. ect…). No matter how many times I would ask if he could "keep it down"- he just would ignore it. He would constantly try to get me to go out with him and refused to give me a key to the house… and when I was having trouble with the garage door because it was super cold and couldn't get in the house- he was a total jerk about it.

I took a new job- thinking it would be more money and less stress… but it is just as bad as my last job.

I feel like my college degrees just put me in massive debt and barely improved my career. Now I am just paying off loans and trapped in this weird limbo with adulthood.

I just feel like I go to work- get yelled at by coworkers and customers… and then get home and instead of relaxing, get told how much of an asshole I am…

I keep trying to find hobbies or other jobs… but nothing pans out and I am too depressed for hobbies.

I guess I am just tired of life being hard. I thought by thirty some of the stress and struggle would have dropped off… that I wouldn't spend life always feeling like I am barely scraping by and burnt out… but no such luck.

Lately I just feel like giving up and cbting.