I'm in a hotel that must be having a party or something. That or the walls are just poorly insulated. The couple next to me sure we're having a loud time earlier. They sounded like they really enjoyed their 4 minutes. Maybe I'll get reincarnated as their baby... haha.
I will carry two major regrets with me. What this will do to my mother, and to the woman I love. I only hope they can move on from it and don't blame themselves.
As with most people on here, this would be my third attempt. First was a car crash, substantial damage to the vehicle, minor to myself. Second was hanging plan and I was talked out of doing it and made a promise not to, that was due to heartbreak, that took a decade to get over. Then there was this time, results to be determined. Also for heartbreak, and massive life changes. I do feel I could survive all those things, all coming at once, but I'd never be the same, id never get back what I had lost, and by the time I did get over it all, if ever, I'd be too old to start again.
Who knows really?
I'd like to thank Stan, and MeltingHeart in particular. Both have been helpful and kind.
Ok SN drunk. It's pretty salty and a little burny. Not terrible, but not a pleasant drink.
before adding the water I help the grains up to the light and could see a yellow tint coming through. We shall see.
the piece of chocolate was a good tip someone mentioned. I recommend it to remove the taste from your mouth/brain
Heart noticeable beating faster