Venting Resenting those who love me for making it harder to leave

[areagarden]

I hate it when my friends talk about how much i mean to them. I hate it when they want to make plans with me or talk about our future together. I know it should make me feel loved or supported, but all it does is make it feel harder to leave. If only them caring about me was enough. All it does now is add salt to the wound.

 

[romanbrown]

you never know if they actually love you. love is strong claim, conditional love is easy in this world but unconditional love is difficult in this world. i favour unconditional love so i'd like to not be quick to believe that they ACTUALLY love you, not in a valuable way

I hate it when my friends talk about how much i mean to them. I hate it when they want to make plans with me or talk about our future together. I know it should make me feel loved or supported, but all it does is make it feel harder to leave. If only them caring about me was enough. All it does now is add salt to the wound.

you should test their love

 

[Front Back]

I hate our morality man, There's people who kill and starve thousand and could sleep peacefully while we here stuck, being afraid of hurting one person

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I hate it when my friends talk about how much i mean to them. I hate it when they want to make plans with me or talk about our future together. I know it should make me feel loved or supported, but all it does is make it feel harder to leave. If only them caring about me was enough. All it does now is add salt to the wound.

There are people who are completely alone with absolutely no one and nothing to be happy about to keep them from wanting to hurt themselves. Truly, nothing. You sound like you have a lot of love and support. You would be hurting these people tremendously. Have you tried any medications? Sometimes, just the right one for you can make a tremendous difference!! I wish you love and luck. I hope you can find some relief from these intrusive feelings. You have much to live for. Don't give up yet!!