Venting Repercussions of failing

[bpdbun]

I am more than ready to go, but the thing holding me back is I am afraid of failing. If I fail and require hospitalization, that will mean missing work and missing money. Then, that means being unable to pay bills. My biggest stressor aside from mental and chronic illnesses is money. I have no financial support, and if I fail things will become so much worse. If I have to be alive, I'd at least rather be alive living paycheck to paycheck in my apartment vs homeless. Ugh

And there's no backup plan for finances. My retirement won't let me pull money early and I am unable to save. This is so frustrating. I wish I had a method that was 100%. I also wish I had the money (and balls) to buy and use a gun.

 

[Cyc]

I'm also afraid of failing. If I failed I'd end up being sectioned which is my worst nightmare

 

[BradGuy123]

I hear you and empathize. I would be afraid of failing. But I'd also be worried about failing and having some kind of long-term negative health effect or being crippled or becoming a vegetable.