Venting Religious vent

[redsendtend]

I'm a Christian, or was. I believed in God, left my family and my house all that. Albeit, my family were pretty abusive in relation to the parents around me, i couldve survived it. I left my home for God, gave up everything. The reason i believed in God in the first place was because of certain events, now I look back I think that I only was "blessed" or it was a "miracle" because of my social standing: people of lower social standing were insecure and so submitted to me and so a lot of good things happened to me which I thought that was "luck" or "miracles" but it was actually just my privilige. This revelation wouldn't be so hurtful if I didn't build my whole belief and life on God, for Jesus said "whoever gives up their life will find it" and (something along the lines of) "a wise man builds his house on sure foundation". Now I've been "demoted in society" if you will, everything has changed and lo and behold God is not there so... Yeah. There's a lot more other things... i cant put it all into one post but this all is very sad to me. I loved "God" more than anything, but through reflections and things like that, I realised that it wasn't God, it was just society's clogs working and I was too privallegedly ignorant to see it. Makes sense tbh, a lot of times in history we usually slap a label on anything wonderfully mysterious as "of God". I do feel a bit scared for posting this reply because Jesus says that "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is an unforgivable sin", but the Bible also says that God desires truth, so God, if you are real, this is how I feel. I think this text/comment was a prayer, cry for help and self-analysis all in one go. Oh well. To whoever reads this, i hope I did not discourage your faith but this is just my feelings and I wrote it to vent, not to unconvert. If Christianity works for you great, if it didn't, then also great.

I'm 18, female, and I'm pretty much a femcel by definition I guess. Sort of became a femcel for God, but now everything's gone, my childhood room has gone and everything. My message to the world is be grateful with what you have, and don't take a good community for granted and respect your privilleges handed to you from birth.

 

[purebliss]

Religion can be a truly powerful copium.
It allows an individual to endure suffering that the average person could not endure.

But one also has to be careful to not let it slip into toxic positivity, thinking "god" will fix anything truly for you.
That is the most difficult part. There are a lot of people who think praying would magically fix their life in any way. It is sadly only you and you alone, who can fix your life :'D

God can be a great guide by using him as a "rubberduck" basically allowing you to slowly unwind your own questions ^^

I hope you will find your true happiness no matter how that looks like <3

 

[Manfrotto99]

Thank you for your honesty. You have learnt a lot in your young age and it is not too late at all. I believe God can use you and turn it around for good.

I am much older than you and I hear all the time - people who speak of these things - declaring give it all up for God. Yet they themselves very rarely have been required to do so. They have something on their side whether it be looks, confidence, money, education, a good family etc etc. They may have some common hardships like most of us - but then society favours them and gives them a break. Instead of acknowleding they have privileges - they say it is because they resisted sin, listened to God, gave it up for God and put Him first...it becomes about their works...then God apparently rewards with some amazing sign or miracle! It's a great story to declare from the pulpit!

I've seen this all my life and been accused of being a "bad" person time and time again because God punishes me by never giving me a break. That I either don't listen to God, try to be in control, wont give it all up and simply desire material things...so God withholds and punishes me even more. I even accuse my self of these things. I think it's the same for many on here...just been given a very bad run from the very beginning with very few opportunities in society to break free.

I think those privileges you had and social standing were indeed a gift from God - but perhaps God has plans for you to do something with them that in your ignorance you have not been aware of. Its not too late. There are many Biblical stories where God blesses people but they step out of line with His desires - still He restores favour on them as it's part of His plans and purpose...sometimes it does require a real miracle but God.

Some people are blessed more than others and not because of anything they have done - yet instead of being grateful and accepting it, they have to make it about themselves and how they have somehow earned it through what they do or dont do. I really think it's a way humans reason why God gives to some and not to others. Just look at the book of Job with his friends. I do not understand it at all, but I really appreciate your honesty and i truly believe God can turn your situation around for good. Thank you for sharing and being honest and vulnerable.