goodbyebunny .
Member
- Oct 29, 2020
- 5
For years now i've struggled to maintain any relationship/friendship i've had. I've always wanted the best for the person but didn't realise I never took care of myself until it was too late. I try my best to see the positive side of things but It doesn't do any good anymore.
Every time i want to do something good it goes bad.
One minute i love the person and enjoy their company, the next minute i despise them.
I guess you could say i don't have very stable emotions,
sometimes i wish i could completely get rid of them.
But at this point i want to isolate myself;
yet, i want to be surrounded by my loved ones.
My emotions don't make sense to me and when I lash out I hurt the ones I truly care about the most
Not because i want to
But simply because I have no control.
I've tried hobbies, sports, extra studying but none of that helps,
it only drifts me away from my problems and before I know it, I'm back in the place i was before, my heart pounding uncontrollably through my chest
I just want the pain to go away but It never will, I lost all hope
I just want to be happy
Every time i want to do something good it goes bad.
One minute i love the person and enjoy their company, the next minute i despise them.
I guess you could say i don't have very stable emotions,
sometimes i wish i could completely get rid of them.
But at this point i want to isolate myself;
yet, i want to be surrounded by my loved ones.
My emotions don't make sense to me and when I lash out I hurt the ones I truly care about the most
Not because i want to
But simply because I have no control.
I've tried hobbies, sports, extra studying but none of that helps,
it only drifts me away from my problems and before I know it, I'm back in the place i was before, my heart pounding uncontrollably through my chest
I just want the pain to go away but It never will, I lost all hope
I just want to be happy