Fehler
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- Oct 12, 2020
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I'm a piece of shit, I've been fasting for about 13 hours and I should have already taken the meto, or at least the ibuprofen. I've been waiting since the beginning of April for this day (I don't know, it seemed like a good date to me). But here I am still waiting to start with the doses or have something to eat. Now, at the key moment, the thoughts already come "What if you put it off?" "At dawn it can be better"...it is not that I have done anything on the list, which is not that it would take me a long time to do it, I would only have to leave the letters in their place, send the scheduled mail to the local police, prepare a bucket and towels in case I vomited and say goodbye to some of the forum, but still, it demotivates me, just by thinking.
Like life itself, I wasn't taking this seriously either. At least I didn't cry this time, I'm surprised that yesterday neither my mother nor my sister noticed anything in me, although after so many years of acting, I don't blame them, there comes a point where you don't really know how you feel.
At least I didn't open the SN pot again and I see that I can hold the fast well, next time it will be longer.
Like life itself, I wasn't taking this seriously either. At least I didn't cry this time, I'm surprised that yesterday neither my mother nor my sister noticed anything in me, although after so many years of acting, I don't blame them, there comes a point where you don't really know how you feel.
At least I didn't open the SN pot again and I see that I can hold the fast well, next time it will be longer.