Regretful about life ctb

[FireFox]

Everyday i live with regret over my life choices and i realise i am never going to be person i was supposed to be.

I had all dreams and ideas now i am nothing but bitter at my life. I wanted to work in goverement or law. I wanted to change the world
I lost interest. I feel like dont have an chance at all for these jobs. The job descriptions puts me off applying

I am 23 but i feel like i am 50.
My regrets
- going to university so young. A since leaving i pratically cant cope. I am scared of doing another degree as i am scared of graduating.
-Turning down the satruday job in a church 2 years ago due to fear of screwing up. I will never a job offer in my life. My fear comes from.a placment which went badly and ruined my confidence
Since then i find it impossible to find work. Maybe it karma
-self harming in my teens . I cant join the navy or the army or RAF. My last chance of escaping everything
- i never had job in my life . I made myself unemployable

I lived all these years and nothing to show for it.
- No appartment in london ..i live with my family i am a loser . I feel like a child living with them
- no steady boyfriend
- No cool travel adventures. People my age travel a lot
My life is so boring and meaningless.
My desire to catch the bus grows and grows as i cant see it ever getting better or my life changing .
I am sorry for my post if it self pityng i am cant stop crying realsing i fucked up everything.
I fucked up
I am.never going to be the person i was meant to be

 

[Good4Nothing]

I am.never going to be the person i was meant to be

Then be a different person. Start a punk rock band, be a graffiti artist, join the carnival...

 

[pian]

I feel the same. I'm only 18, but I failed all my classes this semester so I'm not even graduating. The GED isn't as good as an actual diploma and I don't want to have to retake classes. Then after that it's probably some crappy community college or dead end customer service jobs... I wish I could've gone to a 4 year, but I'm not mentally stable enough.

They usually tell directionless people like us to join the military or whatever, but our mental illnesses are severe and disqualify us.

I just don't see myself ever succeeding. Especially in this job market. I'd rather just die before ever having to suffer through real adulthood. I have no idea how you guys have dealt with it so long, but I don't envy it