Discussion Regret?

[The-end-is-here]

Taking SSRI for OCD. I was a student with no depression, just OCD. I was a very emotional person, socializing was my passion. I started taking zoloft. After 5 months of Zoloft use, it totally erased my soul. I have no emotions anymore, my memories don't feel like they are mine anymore because no emotions attached to them. My friends now feel like strangers to me for the same reason, no emotional bounding to them. Its now 2 years ago that i quit taking them and my emotions never came back. The pills also gave me PSSD (post SSRI sexual dysfunction), so zero libido, permanent. Dick is also fucked by the pills. I also got very bad androgen issues from them, atrophying my muscle and making me feel extremely weak. Working out makes me sick now. My energy levels are at a zero. I have bad anhedonia on top of that, also gained on the pills. I had to quit my study, don't see my friends anymore, and now lay in bed 24/7 at my parents house in bed. I have not been able to leave the house in months. And o yeah, most therapists say I am just avoiding life, and SSRI is very safe, it could never permanently fuck someone up. Thanks psychiatry for digging my grave, I will be dead in a month.

 

[R_N]

Like some here, I regret trusting psychiatrists also. My life is ruined by meds.

 

[Cutepoison]

Like some here, I regret trusting psychiatrists also. My life is ruined by meds.

This is so scary. I feel the same way. It totally ruined everything for me. And still, i can't even sleep, i have been unable to sleep for a good year now

 

[reto]

Nothing but regrets from a perspective of failing to achieve what I could of

 

[21Neberg]

Are you under order to complete your therapy with this therapist? If not then you should be able to withdraw yourself and seek other assistance. If the therapist resists perhaps ask him to refer you to somebody else. It doesn't matter if he believes he can clinically treat you - you either click or you don't.

I'm not under an order to complete therapy. My problem is that i don't have the balls to stand up for myself - and they fucking know that lol.
It's not that me and my therapists don't click, it's just that it's not helping me and moreover i have so many hours of therapy every week that I literally don't have enough hours left to pay my fucking rent. I don't have much of a choice here.

 

[TheEndof]

I didn't ctb when I was 17. Would have saved me and a lot of people in my life a lot of trouble.

 

[itwillpass]

This is going to sound wrong as I have two kids (twins) but I regret meeting my now wife. It didn't feel right from the beginning but due to having so such a low opinion of myself I thought it might be my only chance of being a couple.

I love my kids more than anything and for that reason alone I've suffered years of mental abuse from their mother. my mental health has really suffered.

Actually my biggest regret is not going through with ctb when I wanted to do it 18 years a go. I should've done it.