Regret not trying sooner?

[GorgeousGuillotine]

I lost my dream job at 22. I'm now 26 and still regret not offing myself in the store that day when they fired me. My life has just spiraled since then. Do you have a time when you attempted or almost did and constantly regret it not ending?

 

[Steff1337]

I regret not ending my life by the age of 18, because I'm 29 now, and that whole time was just pain and suffering, more and more.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

My life was ruined in my early 20's. I essentially killed myself then and didn't realize it. Been operating on rust and fumes since. Hopefully for not much longer.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

4.5 years ago when I had fresh LW SN in my hand I should have killed myself then . 2.5 years ago when I had fresh DD Industrial SN I should have killed myself then. 4.5 Years passed like it seemed a few days a blink of an eye. I blinked and 4.5 years passed and I have made zero progress on my suicide goal . Things have only gotten worse. I wouldn't have missed anything in the last 4.5 years only a lot of suffering. I need to kill myself asap

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Whilst I did wish that I wouldn't survive past 18, I can't say that I regret not trying to kill myself as suicide simply isn't on that scale to where I can regret not killing myself. Suicide is perhaps one of the bravest thing that a human can do. To not have killed myself by a specific age is reasonable due to the harsh magnitude of suicide. I do hope that I manage to kill myself soon enough otherwise I may have regrets

 

[DeadManLiving]

My life was ruined in my early 20's. I essentially killed myself then and didn't realize it. Been operating on rust and fumes since. Hopefully for not much longer.

This best summarizes; except mine was ruined in early 30s.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

This best summarizes; except mine was ruined in early 30s.

Never too late to have it all destroyed!

 

[kyhoti]

Yeah, back in 2022. I was hours away from slipping out and I called emergency services. It wasn't an acute attempt, just the result of my overall health, substance abuse, and lack of self-care (CTB on the slow installment plan).

The doctors were amazed I survived. Looking back, I should have just stayed in my recliner and closed my eyes. Instead, I placed that call because I didn't want my kids to come over only to find me there.

Slipping away would have been so much better. Now, I have to push myself down the slide.

 

[freakshow]

I regret failing my suicide attempt at 15, but I wish i hadnt attempt it. my life spiraled so much after that
if I had a chance at happiness I pretty much destroyed it because of this attempt

 

[uglyugly]

I had a dream job in my 40s. I woke up every day and couldn't believe how incredibly lucky I was. Since that ended over 14 years ago, I have wanted to die nearly every day. My life has zero meaning despite looking for something to fill the void over and over and over and over.

There was this night on the shore of Lake Superior in Michigan. I realize I wish I would have died that night, because it was the last time I've been at peace in my life. That was 2008. I should have walked into the lake. Even in summer, that lake is cold as hell and eventually hypothermia would have taken over.

 

[mercutiomartis]

After an episode I was discharged from the hospital and given some pills that I was planning on taking (which wouldn't have done much but at the time I was unaware of how unlikely it is to succeed ctb with an OD) and I got so spooked that I flushed them. Wish I'd kept them anyway since they would've helped with the torture of being conscious anyway