I started suffering from OCD when I was 12, but started hiding it from family no matter how bad it got, out of shame and fear. By the time I finally told them at 17, I was a fucking depressed mess. If I had seeked help earlier, I might not have endes up like this. This thought gives me immense regret. Anyone else with similar experience of hiding mental illness or not seeking help early?
Hi I'm literally 2 minutes new here, I know how you feel, I'm not ocd per se, but I get really angry if my personal home routine is changed.
I've suffered with hyperactivity and lack of attention since I was very young.
It's made me quite a fuck up today as I was never given any meaningful help for it.
It gets worse as I started to have psychotic illnesses and depression my entire life, and grew far worse after my partner of 16 years passed away in 2017, when I got with her, I accepted all her children straight away like my own, but now my partner is gone, I find myself alone, drowning in my various issues/psychoses like you must feel...
Im not sure what to do, but I try to get out of bed everyday for them, I just think it will be easier for them not to put up with someone that had major issues already, and now dealing with bereavement related PTSD too now.