• Hey Guest,

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    Any demands for censorship or requests to comply with the law outside of the US will be promptly ignored.

    No foreign laws or pressure will make us comply with anti-censorship laws and we will protect the speech of our members, regardless of where they might live in the world. If that means being blocked in the UK, so be it. We would advise that any UK member gets a VPN to browse the site, or use TOR.

    However, today, we stand up these these governments that want to bully or censor this website.

    Fuck OFCOM, and fuck any media organization or group that think it's cool or fun to stalk or bully people that suffering in this world.

    Edit: We also wanted to address the veiled threats made against a staff member in the UK by the BBC in the news today. We are undeterred by any threats, intimination, by the BBC or by any other groups dedicated to doxxing and harassing our staff and members. Journalists from the BBC, CTV, Kansas Star, Daily Mail and many other outlets have continuiously ignored the fact that many of the people that they're interviewing (such as @leelfc84 on Twitter/X) and propping up are the same people posting addresses of staff members and our founders on social media. We show them proof of this and they ignore it and don't address it.They're all just as evil as each other, and should be treated accordingly. They do not care about the safety of our staff members, founders, or administrators, or even members, so why would they care about you?

    Now that we have your attention, journalists, will you ever address this? You've given these evil people interviews, and free press.

Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
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I thought I wanted to give it a shot, but I realize how truly pointless it is to try and recover from 7 years straight of being suicidal. My mom was diagnosed with cancer on August 14, so I think that is a good day for me to die. I'm thinking about trying hanging again, just to see if I can do it. I realize how soon that is and how much I flip flop with this, but it's because the struggle with this is so difficult. If I cant do it in a few days, I'll postpone it until November 1.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry you suffer in this cruel existence. Anyway, I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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CantDoIt

Experienced
Jul 18, 2024
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I thought I wanted to give it a shot, but I realize how truly pointless it is to try and recover from 7 years straight of being suicidal. My mom was diagnosed with cancer on August 14, so I think that is a good day for me to die. I'm thinking about trying hanging again, just to see if I can do it. I realize how soon that is and how much I flip flop with this, but it's because the struggle with this is so difficult. If I cant do it in a few days, I'll postpone it until November 1.
I totally get you. I keep thinking that I want to give recovery a shot but to be honest with you I simply do not. I am so sorry about your mother, I wish you the best in whatever you do.
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
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Smtm no posbl rcvr life cncp all wrng time mov mov endall
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
115
Just a thought. Maybe hang around to do what you can for your mom before you CTB.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,743
Just a thought. Maybe hang around to do what you can for your mom before you CTB.

My mom died in 2017. I've been suicidal ever since. I forgot to mention that earlier in my post, but the anniversary of when she got sick is coming up soon.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
115
My mom died in 2017. I've been suicidal ever since. I forgot to mention that earlier in my post, but the anniversary of when she got sick is coming up soon.
I'm so very sorry that you are suffering.💔
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
401
My mom died in 2017. I've been suicidal ever since. I forgot to mention that earlier in my post, but the anniversary of when she got sick is coming up soon.
So sorry to hear this, loss like that can be so huge and all encompassing. If you feel like you might go sooner than later, please update us if you can. We care<3 Anniversaries like that are so damn hard. Here if you wanna chat.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,743
I don't think I'm ready to try hanging again so soon. Truth is, I'm afraid to try leaving that way. If I could just die from a heart attack in my sleep, that would be preferable, but it never happens. A death like that is like winning the lottery it seems like, but I beg and hope for it every night, even if there's no god out there listening. I just want this life to be over, but maybe I'll be ready by November 1 to try hanging again. I don't really know.
 
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Rhymester

Annoying gum stuck to the back of everyone's shoe
Aug 9, 2023
81
I relate to this a lot. I removed recovery from my view on this website. It's not for me either. I've been suicidal since 16, now I'm 21, and I still feel the same. There are moments of occasional happiness for me, but it's never long-lasting. At the end of the day, the last thing on my mind is death. Don't want the world to hurt me, and I don't want to hurt the world ever again. It sucks how life has placed you in such an awful situation. I'm really sorry. Just know that this pain won't last forever 🫂
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,743
I really think November 1 is it for me, or at least sometime between now and then. I think my attachments that I had to this world are all gone, and I'm finally getting to the point of not really caring about anyone anymore. I still care about people like me who want to leave this world behind, but I have no more energy to care about anyone else.

I think my exit will need to be a little bit impulsive, but sometimes that's just how it has to be. For me it definitely does.
 

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