Help Recommended SN alternative

[Abbadab]

So I'm in california, and I've been struggling to find an SN source because of the fact. I've had multiple attempts over the years, but I find I have an incredibly potent survival instinct with things like hanging/jumping.

In the past, I've taken incredibly lethal doses of meds without any panic and stoicism despite it wreaking havoc on my body. Because of the fact, I'm very confident in my ability to take something like SN and not lose my cool or back out in the middle.

I've been suffering so much for so long to the point where I specifically want a method where I don't have to force myself past incredibly strong SI to achieve peace. I'm willing to put in a bit of time/effort/money to give myself a more peaceful death. I feel like it's the least I can do for myself.

I'm wondering if you guys had any recommendations for an alternative if I end up not being able to find accessible SN. Something that might tick some of the boxes I've mentioned. I realize it's unlikely, but it would bring me so much relief. Thank you all ♥

 

[Chelsea Leng]

I agree with you that it's worth putting in a bit of time/effort/money to give yourself a more peaceful death.
But how can you trust illegal drug?

 

[Tears in Rain]

So I'm in california, and I've been struggling to find an SN source because of the fact. I've had multiple attempts over the years, but I find I have an incredibly potent survival instinct with things like hanging/jumping.

In the past, I've taken incredibly lethal doses of meds without any panic and stoicism despite it wreaking havoc on my body. Because of the fact, I'm very confident in my ability to take something like SN and not lose my cool or back out in the middle.

I've been suffering so much for so long to the point where I specifically want a method where I don't have to force myself past incredibly strong SI to achieve peace. I'm willing to put in a bit of time/effort/money to give myself a more peaceful death. I feel like it's the least I can do for myself.

I'm wondering if you guys had any recommendations for an alternative if I end up not being able to find accessible SN. Something that might tick some of the boxes I've mentioned. I realize it's unlikely, but it would bring me so much relief. Thank you all ♥

Inert gas method is peaceful, but you'd have to have a bag/hood/mask on your face for 30-60 seconds. That doesn't suit everyone, and s.i. can hit some people in that time.

 

[Abbadab]

Inert gas method is peaceful, but you'd have to have a bag/hood/mask on your face for 30-60 seconds. That doesn't suit everyone, and s.i. can hit some people in that time.

I totally forgot about inert gas. That's an amazing idea that I'll look into. Thank you!!!

 

[mortuarymary]

Cyanide