Discussion Reasons for writing suicide notes?

[TAW122]

I am wondering what your reasons for having a suicide note for loved ones, the world, or just anyone in general would be?

For me, while I am not really writing it for myself, it is mostly for their benefit for them finding closure and giving a thorough explanation of my decision. I don't owe them anything (nor do they) and I could just leave them doubting, guessing and more because once I'm gone, I won't be there to experience it (the last part is a fact). I won't be alive or conscious to feel or experience the aftermath. I could just die immediately and not ever leave a note, but I (on my own free will, my own volition) decided that I want to give some closure to the people around me IRL (I don't have to, nor do I need to either), so that's my main reason for leaving a note, an explanation.

What are your reasons? Perhaps we may even have the same reasons for writing suicide notes.

 

[TAW122]

Since there hasn't been many people who seen this thread let alone responded to it, and also it has been a while, I'm just bumping this thread so people would see it.

Also, another few reasons I have for writing suicide notes are tying loose ends with people, giving them instructions post-mortem on what to do with the body (if applicable), and then absolving any guilt or responsibility of others. Another thing is that since this community has been great for me over the last two years and I have good ideas that maybe some of us could use, then I suppose when the time comes, I wish to pass the torch and spread my good ideas out so that someday (be it years, decades, or more) that suicide and CTB will become less stigmatized and that people are able to talk freely about suicide without the threat of hospitalization, involuntary treatment, and/or other civil freedoms being taken away.

 

[Nem]

I just would leave a note stating why it came to this, that being a shitty dr and a sociopathic fiancé. That's pretty much it
Peace/hugs

 

[zomboy]

when i write a note, it'll be to my fiance and little brother. I want them to know it's not their fault, they couldn't have stopped me, and that i love them. they're the two most important people in my life and I wouldn't ever want them to feel responsible for my choice. i also want to send a final message to my mother explaining why our relationship deteriorated. she would never listen to me alive about how she abused me, maybe she will after I'm dead. i want her to realize what she did so she doesn't do the same to anyone else, least of all my brother. but I won't mention anything about my suicide, she's not responsible for that either. funeral requests/post-mortem instructions I'm going to write a will for.

 

[Despondent]

I couldn't have said it better. It's the same for me. But I wouldn't do it for my family, I would do it for my second mom who's more like my real mom and maybe a couple other people. Let them know how much they do mean to me. I would want them to have closure because I love them very much and I wouldn't want them to live the rest of their life thinking that it was their fault (if that were what they were to think).

 

[Time]

I love my family & I want the aftermath of my ctb to be as painless as possible. I feel the need to make sure they know that I love them & that it wasn't their fault.

 

[othermilk]

I don't want my family and friends to blame themselves. I want them to know why I did it. They tried to help me but I couldn't have been helped, and there's nothing that they could've done better to help me. My family already knows what I want done with my body, but I included that too.

 

[Girobatol]

To leave the passwords of my debit cards so they can get the money out.

 

[Ghost2211]

Honestly the only person I would want to hear about my thoughts after I die is my eldest son, and it would be all flavors of wrong to leave an eight-year-old a suicide note. I don't think anyone else would care.

 

[deadmalk]

I lost my 12 year old son to suicide 9 months ago and every day since then I have wanted to die to be with him. I've written many notes to my wife, older son and daughter, parents, sister, neieces and nephew, my grandson and close friends. I know they feel they know the pain I'm going through, but losing a child is indescribable. I don't even wish anyone to think about it, but I wrote the letters so they will hopefully not carry any guilt, what ifs, and question my reasons. I explained why I made certain decisions in my life, told them what I loved about them, a few great memories, and let them know I loved them, but I couldn't get over losing my son and Understand a parents love. While I've come close twice and was intervened, I took the holiday opportunity to tell them how I felt and that there may a day that I don't crawl out from the dark hole I fall deeper into each day. I love what my life has been and I love living, but I just don't feel Ican overcome the loss of my son.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Just wanting them to know it's not their fault and it was 100% my choice.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I'm going to. I just can't leave without putting the minds of who I care about at (some) ease. My sister would never be able to forgive herself if I left without ensuring her that none of this is her fault in any way.

 

[Allegory]

My suicide note will just be a list of bank account and life insurance info so my parents can access my money. I may tell them not to waste money on a funeral, but they probably wouldn't listen. My parents are Catholic and I thought Catholic churches did not do funerals for suicides anyway.

I'm too tired to explain myself and l have told them multiple times in the past that I want to die. I'll just give the bank account/insurance info. I would not be suicidal if I thought they loved me so no need to write a note.

 

[Cutepoison]

I'm torn between writings something very elaborate vs a short sarcastic one, like "Dear life, I wasn't impressed so I resigned" or "That's all, folks". Part of me really wants to add a funny twist to it.
Then again, I've been suicidal for a while now and everyone around me knows that. There's no compassion, so maybe I won't leave a note after all. Can't decide.

 

[faust]

I am writer, poet and composer myself so will definitely leave the links in the letter to access my art if I never publish myself. But this is not the main reason.
The main reason is to tell about my decision and thank for everything good what was in our relationships. Furthermore, I would like to tell the unknown story about me and my inner self so that nobody has doubts about why that happened.

 

[ClaireBear31]

I'm very torn on this. Although there are so many reasons why I want to CTB, one of them is my relationship with my spouse. If I don't tell him in a note, he will never believe it and just spend the rest of his life saying I was crazy. But if I do tell him in a note, I fear he would be driven to CTB himself and I don't ever want to be responsible for that.

 

[ComingClose]

No notes from me but I've given my daughter the details of the cremation service so that she can give them a ring and set the ball rolling when I die - nothing suspicious about that. I'll also set up a payment from my bank a/c to hers to transfer all funds to her the day after I ctb and know that she'll do the right thing for her siblings. Husband knows my wishes but won't follow them which is why I'm entrusting it all to my daughter. He's away right now and won't return for another 3 weeks so my own bus may come along pretty soon whilst I have plenty of time without him getting in my face

 

[140 bpm]

I can't say that I'm going to leave a note, it's more like a book. I was doing a lot of notes during my life, thinking that one day I'll publish action story or script. But now I realize, that it's drama and my CTB willing just looks perfect as a "happy end".
And also I'll leave all info from my crypto wallets , where I have good savings for my mother.

 

[imagineit]

I have turned this idea over in my head so many times, but I just don't know. On one hand, if I leave a note that provides any sort of thoughts or explanations it would be directed solely towards my mother. As little as I care for my father, it sort of doesn't sit right with me. If nothing else, I will have to leave a note though that pretty much tries to guilt my parents into not holding any type of service, funeral or death notice. I don't even know if that last bit, public records and what not, is even possible. I need them to finally 'hear me' on something, and so the tone of the letter will not exactly be a positive one. It almost makes me not want to leave a note at all. It's a bizarre thought process, so I will have to really consider this when the hour draws nearer. After all this time, I think, my decision will not surprise so a note doesn't exactly seem necessary. Or at least I am telling myself that.

 

[Jean4]

Stan wrote me a handwritten note that came after he CTB. He said things in it that Mr. Logical couldn't say to my face. It's something for me to hold onto.

He also wrote it wasn't my time yet, and I shouldn't follow him. I read that over and over when I become impulsive.

I guess notes depends on the relationship you have with the person.

 

[Kneel]

I think my only reason would be letting my immediate family/relatives know that I don't wish for a funeral.
It's pointless for people who never cared about me during my life to celebrate/mourn after I'm gone lol.
But since I'm planning on a method that will hopefully end up looking like an accident, a suicide note would defeat the purpose.

 

[Heart of Ice]

I just think I owe it to my parents and friends. I would want to know, in their position, why I committed suicide.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I don't want to leave any unanswered questions, I don't want people blaming themselves unnecessarily, I want to make sure that my reasoning is thoroughly explained and documented. I also want to leave people a letter becuase it's personal and something they can hold on to.