Really regret delaying my CTB attempt

[nopeaceofmind]

I really want to CTB so bad rn, was scheduled to do it a month ago. Decided to spend a final day with family doing everything they wanted when last minute I found out an immediate family member had to get an emergency surgery procedure done and needed me to be there to take care of them for another month until they heal. I really want them to be good and fine so they wont have too much hassle sorting out my funeral.

Im currently getting more meds/counseling which I know wont help, a bullet the brain keeps the pain away right? Really cant wait for this to be over

 

[Eternal Sleep!]

I'm in the same boat, I think a lot about suicide but I just can't do it yet. I still have a little hope things get better but as time goes on there is no real progress/recovery since 2 years suffering suicidal crisis.

I have my method ready (SN) for the day i really can't take it anymore.

I wish you strength and hope things will get better for you!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel regretful, I get that it's so tiring and awful feeling trapped here when you just wish to leave, I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for.