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Suspect_Device
Student
- Jul 10, 2022
- 134
I tried some light lifting today and yep, now my fucking shit ass neck is inflamed. Just reminding me of how disabled and useless I will always be. It's like a neon sign that clicks on and blinks "KILL YOURSELF... KILL YOURSELF" over and over. I am so incredibly fucked. I kind of wish there were more outward manifestations of the physical pain I'm in so that people would understand. But I don't blame them, it's hard to understand spine pain unless you've experienced it. Wish I wasn't barred from buying a gun I would just fucking buy one and end this today.