Story realized my mom entrusted me to help ctb if ever necessary

[artichoke]

i realized today that my mom has entrusted me to help her with medical assistance in dying if things ever come to that point. she's always been worried about getting a disease that's genetic in her family that her parents both had and can be asbolutely horrible at the end of life. since i was probably twelve years old, she's brought it up every few years. it's not like she's planning for anything to happen, but she's aware she has a chance of developing this disease, and she's aware there's then another chance for it to be a very horrific presentation of the disease.

i don't think i fully understood what she's asking of me before, because i didn't know the words for it and neither did she. it used to just make me anxious for the future and paranoid. but after reading so much literature on these subjects, i feel--this feels weird--honored to be entrusted with this. i don't think she has told anyone else.

reading the free online exerpt from Jean's Way really made me understand my role in this. i'm grateful that this and other relevant literature exist.

i just feel relief and closer to my mom after understanding this now. i have a better understanding of what this means to my mom and what asking it of me means in terms of our relationship. i value her very much and feel very trusted by her.

 

[dory]

This is beautiful wishing you both peace :)

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly is so horrific how existence can torture people endlessly so of course people deserve the relief of knowing that there is a way to permanently escape from all the suffering. I wish you the best.