Realised how lonely I am

[arcadia]

Honestly, this'll sound pathetic but its dawned on me recently that I don't have any friends. I lost contact with the few distant friends I had within these past few years, and I've been alone since then. I've coped fine, and it isn't like I'm distraught or anything. But I never get to play vg with anybody, or speak to anyone. I'm always in my own head, and that sorta stuff can easily become destructive. I can't make friends to save my life though, and I can't hold conversations outside of personal interests. So it's not like I can just go and make friends easily, and I don't know if I truly want to. But I've just realised that I've been alone for the past 5 years and.. I don't think that's normal
I can't make friends online too.. I don't know why, I just find it too difficult. I can't understand social situations / cues irl or online
I'd really love to share the interests that make me happy with others, but I think I'm just too inept for that, and it makes me sad

 

[BBBB]

I don't have any friends or family or anyone to talk to either. It's a horrible existence!!! Feel free to message me if you'd like to chat.

 

[stermc]

I get that. I do have some friends, but I kept pushing them away and they didn't really care, so it's just me now. Like it has always been. It sucks sometimes. Sorry you are in the same situation.

 

[gimzero]

We cant save our lives this world must finish.

 

[Rational man]

I have just a few friends and to be honest i prefer my own company. And its okay because many people are on their own but not necessarily lonely and thats the big difference.....alone or lonely. I think human relationships are difficult. Most people i know fled when i became ill and the partners i have had both cheated on me. I wish you wellness.

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

For some of us it is a lonely journey for sure, but hey, drop me a message if you feel like it.

Another lone traveler.

 

[Regen]

My situation is not the same, but I understand your struggle, because social interactions are difficult for me too.

I visit once a week a 12-steps-meeting. It helps me a little with my feeling of loneliness. I think, doing something together is sometimes easier then only talking. For me finding friends is difficult too, so I think if I will try a Hobby. But I think something where I can show Something of my inside is more easy for me when I want to feel less lonely. Maybe I will try a second 12-step-meeting. It helps me a little.

I hope and I wish you can find some new ideas to find a way for you to meet other like you.

 

[Personality Zero]

I can totally empathise with your situation. I've always had trouble making friends, and the few I did make I pushed them away. Shyness, hyper-sensitivity and ignorance on my part has left me very isolated. Your not alone in being alone which isn't much of a consolation.

 

[jay308]

Am lonely and alone - just stepped once outside my house in the last 2 months. Dont have the courage or any motivation to see this world. My thoughts , memories , pain , guilt , shame , sins and regret are always haunting me. Tears flow every time I have a flashback. I used to think life is so short , I need to do so much and see so many places but now every minute is difficult to pass.

 

[BBBB]

Am lonely and alone - just stepped once outside my house in the last 2 months. Dont have the courage or any motivation to see this world. My thoughts , memories , pain , guilt , shame , sins and regret are always haunting me. Tears flow every time I have a flashback. I used to think life is so short , I need to do so much and see so many places but now every minute is difficult to pass.

Thanks for sharing. I understand. We're here for you!

 

[FuneralCry]

I actually think that it can be normal to be alone, many people are like that and what is normal is subjective after all. I have always personally preferred to be alone but I get that any kind of loneliness can be hard to deal with for many others. There is just simply nothing fair about existing here in this cruel world, but anyway I wish you the best of luck.

 

[SadScarlet]

I too am like that. Even online I'm afraid. Scared I'll look like an idiot, or not understand anything. It sucks, because I'm severely lonely. Wish I could stop crying about it. Maybe I just have to come to terms I'm not meant to have meaningful friendships.
I hate life and myself.

 

[Versailles]

I can't make friends online too.. I don't know why, I just find it too difficult. I can't understand social situations / cues irl or online
I'd really love to share the interests that make me happy with others, but I think I'm just too inept for that, and it makes me sad

I am lonely, I only have two virtual friends that I feel a lot like, life was quite cruel to me, besides that I understand very well not being able to fit in or function in social relationships, it always happens to me, that's why I have no friends, no one wants to have nothing to do with an autistic handicap like me, sometimes i cry because this fact is one of the stakes in my chest that i have to deal with, anyway, i have no hope, everything has become necessary for me, and I lost control of everything. So I ended up as a friendless hikikomori, even the few friendships I managed to make, we ended up drifting apart or ruining everything.
I see that you are going through the same situation as me, if you like, send me a message, maybe we can chat a little about whatever.

 

[CTB Dream]

Ya understand vey lone no friend both oflin onlin but also want lone cuz hikikomori. But still hard injury damage nobody want nobody help

 

[Zegers]

I've realized that what i lately prefer is to stay at home sleeping, eating something or listening to music and going for a walk about once a week, i feel lonely but dealing with people being sick and glum is a headache.

 

[Archness]

I've kinda lost the ability to have friends. In youth I was very friendly but with age that ability faded. I isolate myself now and have low social ability. I've accepted it since, let's be honest, who actually wants to participate in society in 2023?

 

[randy]

I too am like that. Even online I'm afraid. Scared I'll look like an idiot, or not understand anything. It sucks, because I'm severely lonely. Wish I could stop crying about it. Maybe I just have to come to terms I'm not meant to have meaningful friendships.
I hate life and myself.

there's always hope for meaningful friendships. it takes finding the right people who won't judge you no matter what and investing in and nurturing the friendship - that's a tall order but it is possible.