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[James15]

I've spent 30 years experiencing immense suffering and loneliness. From this suffering I've created art and new ideas as a way of moving on but somehow life said 'fuck you' one last time and allowed someone to steal these from me. Profiting off them while i rot even more. This is my tipping point, i am disempowered and i have no choice but to end things. I cant sleep, go from panic attack to panic attack, barely eat and things that would usually help me cope are falling away just like everything else. There is a point when suicide becomes more appealing than any aspect of life and this is it for me. Why does life do this, i dont understand. Hurts so much.

 

[needinghelp]

I know it won't "help" you to know that I feel great empathy for you. But I post this anyway in the hope that a little compassion today helps you feel better about your day and helps you to plan your ctb journey better.

 

[James15]

I know it won't "help" you to know that I feel great empathy for you. But I post this anyway in the hope that a little compassion today helps you feel better about your day and helps you to plan your ctb journey better.

Thank you. Although my decision is final, this will help me through. Wish someone told me that my soul was worth something earlier on in life, i swear empowerment is the missing ingredient for everyone

 

[CravingPeace]

Thank you. Although my decision is final, this will help me through. Wish someone told me that my soul was worth something earlier on in life, i swear empowerment is the missing ingredient for everyone

Ahh yes, I feel the same way. I wish I was taught how to love my self earlier in life. It's far too late to start learning now.

Best of wishes to you my friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand finding it painful to exist, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[kunikuzushi]

It is so difficult to go through what you said about not being able to sleep, panic attacks, trouble eating, coping mechanisms not working. Exactly what I'm going through too. I'm very sorry you are suffering so much. I hope you can find support here until you go.