Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[Saturn_]

Something like a 5 today?

 

[Moroze]

Today it's a 10. Probably because my exit is soon, and I don't feel like anyone cares anymore. You'd expect people to forget about you when you die, but I haven't died yet, and I already feel like I've been forgotten by everyone.

 

[Nadienobody]

Around 6, I am trying to recover but it feels like I'm not making any progress, I am alone, no job and my anxiety just keeps getting worse.

 

[HazelTheGhost]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

10

 

[g0ne1nthew1nd]

8 bc im almost always but then i get fear or suddenly stop being numb. Otherwise, consistent and strong enough to almost die every week (plan, items nearby, then a sudden fear and emotion)

 

[Confusedsoul12345]

9

 

[waistcoat]

teetering around a 5 or 6

 

[Michi_Violeta]

7. I'm still on the fence, but with each passing day I feel it's the only way forward. It's odd: my body and my subconscious feel better, like I could move on and let go and give life another shot, but my conscious self is so tired of always giving life another shot only for things to end up like last year: broken heart, broken racecar, broken dreams. Tomorrow I'll try and take a step forwards and start looking for SN before I chicken out.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

8-10.

 

[Eudaimonic]

5-6 right now, but the past few weeks I have been 7-9. I feel a modicum more hope, but it's probably delusion.

 

[BlueLock]

It's different day to day. This week it's been a solid 7.

 

[snowlance]

9, the only things stopping me at this point are my fear of an afterlife, SI, and not having a peaceful method. Ive pretty much given up on everything else at this point...

 

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

10!

I was just about ready to ctb this weekend after having collected 56g of yew leaves, and then realised, F! The sort of yew I had picked is the least poisonous kind of all of the taxus genus. I likely won't be able to ctb if I ate these things. I'd been so hopeful, now I'm back to being a sitting duck.

 

[areyousafe??]

9. It's never been this strong before. I hope to be gone by the end of this month.

 

[dead dav]

I would say 6 at present

 

[SA1994EC]

9.6

 

[Soontocatch]

Around 5-6 but then if I start thinking about whats going to happen further down my life it goes up to a 9

 

[Tumblewillow]

8

I want to live so desperately but I'm in so much emotional pain and so lonely. I am of so little value to the people I loved. I'm always going to be too afraid to recover further and trust again. I grieve to be held by someone that truly loves and understands me. I just want to feel it once.

 

[Manic Panic]

Most days it's like a 6 or 7 but recently it's been a 9 to 10

 

[FoxSauce]

Depends howi feel i could be a t 4 and sky rocket at 10

Today is like at 8, i try not to show it i really wanna grab a cord and strangle myself but kinda impossible since I dont live alone so..

Or sh but im just fighting it as best as I can

 

[wham311]

Ten. Just give me a way to do it that works and I'm out. I'm sick of researching I'm not good at this.

 

[CatLvr]

Right now I'm at the lowest point than I have been in several weeks. But then again I am a little tipsy -- which has helped reduce my pain levels significantly -- I may just quit pain management and become a functioning alcoholic.

 

[amomentspeace]

Normally maybe a 5 or lower. When I start thinking then theres a 50% chance it jumps to an 8 and 50% it jumps down to a 1

 

[danzk2005]

1 é suicídio muito baixo, 10 é suicídio agudo muito extremo. Sinto falta do tópico antigo (que foi deletado), é por isso que quero reanimá-lo.

Meus pensamentos suicidas hoje são 4. Tenho algumas distrações e responsabilidades que impedem mais desses pensamentos.

7

 

[LowLevelChimp]

8 today

 

[x3la]

At the moment - 9. I've got a method but not the means. Normally it's between 7 and 8, save for a few select occasions when they go away, maybe twice a year.

 

[restlesseyes]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

9 most of the days it's the only thing i can think about , i not only want to CTB because life issues im so curious as what is next do i reincarnate ? come back as an animal? , become a higher being or is heaven really real and i will spend the rest of eternity with god the last option would kind of scare me the most i don't think people actually grasp what eternity is literally means forever no end what if heaven is not what we expect now we are there forever and don't have the option we have in this life to CTB scary stuff

 

[lana_xyc]

7

 

[TornReality]

For what I've been going through, and how I been feeling lately...
I'd say between 9 or 10.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Right now 6, I think I hit 8 today though. My mother wants to try talking with my ex, but I know it's futile and will only make things worse. Then I'll probably be a 10, hopefully the SN will be here by then and I'll have that final push to ctb.