Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[Hirokami]

8. I failed the "Hiro stop being a fuck up for five minutes challenge" yet again.

 

[noname223]

5. Extreme pressure, extreme anxiety. Too distracted for more suicidal thoughts. Listening to some sad Lil Peep and Juice WRLD music.
Took a half benzo. And I think I will also take the other half.
Fuck my life.

 

[madebrief]

8? I so give up.

 

[jossstick]

10. Every day is a 10

 

[KQuotientW]

12.... CTB tomorrow, Saturday evening, AEST. It's Friday morning here.

 

[Snatsbats]

9. Im going on a trip to poland monday with friends, after that i will probably off myself.

 

[1000winds]

mine has been a constant 8 since March. i know its a right choice for me.

 

[Hurt]

Today is a 10 and I want attempt today.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I said I was Feeling Horrible One week ago today on 22/07. I said it was the end of a horrible week, which it was.
Today I'm still feeling Shit and would love to ctb and be euthanized, I'm at a 7.50/10.00 today. So lil bit better, mainly because I pushed myself to get things done. I would rather stay in bed, but then I would starve, not have my meds or any thing in the house, eventually lose home because Rent would not get paid if wasn't not working, wouldn't be able to have my cats, etc. So as much as I hate this world I'm proud I can make certain sacrifices- esp. to have things I want (i.e.; my kitties)

 

[noname223]

6. Full of sorrows, I worry extremely, very high anxiety. More suicidal thoughts. I want to give up. I am sick of fighting...I am so sad. So anxious. I hate myself. I feel so worthless. I hope this feeling gets a little bit better soon.

 

[*Psyche*]

Yesterday... I think it was yesterday... was 10 for me. But instead of attempting, I took a whole bunch of stuff to help me sleep. Now here I am 24+ hours later feeling hungover & I still want to die. So, maybe an 8 right now, in that I still want to go, but would honestly just rather go back to sleep. Unfortunately, can't do that either. Have to go do stuff. <sigh>

 

[FailureGirl]

8.5

 

[KQuotientW]

13 (not a typo). Was going to CTB tonight but some people unexpectedly visited. Too tired now to set up the charcoal and BBQ. Will lock my property gate (I'm in the bush) tomorrow and pretend I'm not home in case anyone else arrives. Thankfully, they didn't notice the multiple bags of charcoal. For a rural region, no one has questioned why I've been to 2 supermarkets, buying so much charcoal, lol.

 

[chronicallybroken]

7.5

 

[ImsooDone1N]

8.90/10.00 -Up from 7.50/10 24h ago. That's not good or in any way ideal. Hope I can put the brakes on this.

 

[sad jester]

At this current moment, 10. If there was some magical being that came to me right now and propose to Thanos snap my life away, I wouldn't hesitate to take the offer in the slightest.

My thoughts never really fall below like a 5 though. At best they are there, I'm just too distracted by life to be thinking them, but when life starts to suck, which happens quite often, my thoughts always come rushing back.

 

[Hope:-)]

10. I'm going by Christmas, preferably by November. Hold me to it! Ha :-)

 

[noname223]

6,5 So fucking anxious. Wrote a thread about it. I am so fucking anxious. I hope I don't get a panic attack again. The last times they happened like 3-5 a.m.

Really grateful for having this fourm as a valve. This pressure is inhuman. My life is hell.

 

[Maravillosa]

Still 5. My suicide fantasies are wistful. I look forward to ctb as much as I look forward to the ultimate publication of my novel — but I am nowhere near ready to ctb while my novel is unfinished and my mother is still alive.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.0/10.00- similar to yesterday, but things as getting a little worse, which is of course to be expected.

 

[Hope:-)]

10. It's becoming more and more obvious that I'm going to do it. Wish I didn't have to.

 

[LoMVLk]

These lasts months it's been anywhere between a 3 and a 5.
Today I hit 8 and finally ordered SN and antiemetics and wrote my suicide note.
Now I'll just have to wait a few weeks for everything to arrive.

 

[noname223]

More manic and less suicidal. Suicidal thoughts only a 3. Phoned with my best friends several hours. We played video games together.
Though I currently change my medication and I get more manic symptoms. It is kind of dangerous but I am tired to live with the side effects. Not sure if stopping taking it will succed. I curently take 3 different medication and I want to reduce it to 2.

 

[nofutureghost]

9.5 (too lazy to ctb)

 

[Hope:-)]

10 for sure. I'm getting excited about the next life.

 

[noname223]

I had a lot of stress today. I thought I could relax but no. I have a lot of new responsibilites. Some appoinments are now way earlier. Fuck that: I am changing my medication I should avoid too much stress. But no. I have new obligation. I am invited to 2 parties. Maybe at the same date. I like both guys. But my best friends invited me earlier.

Suicidal thoughts maybe a 4. I am kind of stressed. And I have more pressure now.

 

[Hope:-)]

Infinitum. Just feeling really sad.

 

[GasMonkey]

Literal 10 every time I see a beautiful girl; a virgin thing I guess.

 

[Xiamara302]

I'll say 9 JUST in case some more shit decides to hit the fan

 

[Suicidebydeath]

10, I want to die but can't. Sad, frustrated(with family) and lonely.