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LittleJem
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- Jul 3, 2019
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Hi, am feeling just so desperate even though I've had a bit of weed today. I just want this over. I might force myself out for a walk (have been in bed for two days, but weed helps a bit) and a bit of me wants to test the ratchett strap method on my walk. Maybe this is unfair? Who would find me? I also don't thikn it will work. I'm not sure if hardly anyone has successfully used this method?
I have a doctor's appointment lined up, but just bearing every day till that appointment is too much, and then after that it will be months to a psychiatrist. Even if I saw a psychiatrist tomorrow, it will be weeks till anything kicks in. I don't want to be alive, I want the suffering over.
Desperate and trapped. Am I better off waiting till a day on more functional drugs (Lyrica gives me a functional day) then I can plan CTB better? I don't think it will work today, I just don't know how to keep going.
I have a doctor's appointment lined up, but just bearing every day till that appointment is too much, and then after that it will be months to a psychiatrist. Even if I saw a psychiatrist tomorrow, it will be weeks till anything kicks in. I don't want to be alive, I want the suffering over.
Desperate and trapped. Am I better off waiting till a day on more functional drugs (Lyrica gives me a functional day) then I can plan CTB better? I don't think it will work today, I just don't know how to keep going.