Random & Rambling Thoughts Of A Suicidal Mind

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Changing my signature & I wanted to save these. I didn't in the past.

Give a Man a fish & he eats for a day... Give a Man Nembutal and he sleeps for Eternity.
The Lord helps those who help themselves & the rich help themselves the most.
The Lord helps those who help themselves & I will help Myself to Nembutal.
I'm Body Positive... I'm POSITIVE I do not want anyone seeing my Body.
If it doesn't spark joy... Get rid of it. So I will get rid of my life.
Free At Last, Free At Last... Thank ''N" Almighty, Free At Last
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[Squiddy]

I should probably create a signature. Maybe a signature full of Squidward's quotes lol. One being "I have no soul!"

 

[downbad]

I dont know how people are able to live normal lives and stay positive. Everytime I think I'm ready to be normal again I just fall right back into the hole.

 

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Changing my signature again.

LIFE... 0 Stars ... Would NOT Recommend !!!
The Lord Helps Those Who Help Themselves & The Rich Help Themselves The Most
6 Feet Apart Or 6 Feet Under... You Decide. I choose 6 Feet Under.
If it doesn't spark joy … get rid of it. So I will get rid of my life.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I sometimes feel guilty about wanting to die when people are suffering more than myself.

Don't. That's a stupid thing to do. Your life, your pain, your choice. Your experience is as authentic as it gets. Even if there are levels to pain, comparing is useless, even impossible. You really have no reference, except for your experience. Pain is the most solitary and isolating of experiences.

I don't understand how people can vote for millionaires and billionaires thinking they have all the answers to their problems... THEY ARE THE PROBLEM !!!

I'm apolitical to the core. I never voted. My opinion: society was never and it can never be a controlled environment, no matter who's in charge. There's only so much you can do. The sheer number of subjects under a certain rule pretty much guarantees things will go to hell pretty quickly. No decision will ever satisfy everyone. If there's something to blame for society's problems it's the nature of people. The selfish gene. Blame evolution. Someone will always luck out in some way and hold more power. It's the way of all the living world.
I'm an idealist at heart but I don't think that this problem has a solution and I won't blame it on the luckier.

I just won't vote for them :P

 

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Just thinking about her again.

Cinderella-Don't Know What You Got (Til It's Gone)

 

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The best part of never waking up... Is S.N. in your cup.

 

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So.... If I take Antidepressants, then I can die happy?

 

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I am so tired of this shitty life. Right now I'm barely awake. I can't get the life back that I had. It wasn't the greatest but it's gotten so much worse. Continuous downward spiral. Making sure I will be dead when I hit the ground.
If it wasn't for my parents, I would have exited long ago.

 

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I hate me, I hate me...
Life is fu**ing misery
With a rope around my neck
And a chair beneath my feet
Finally I am pain free...

OH SNAP !!!!

 

[Squiddy]

I am so tired of this shitty life. Right now I'm barely awake. I can't get the life back that I had. It wasn't the greatest but it's gotten so much worse. Continuous downward spiral. Making sure I will be dead when I hit the ground.
If it wasn't for my parents, I would have exited long ago.

I know what you mean. My life wasn't the greatest years ago, but at least I didn't have shitty brain fog and other issues. If it wasn't for my SI and a few people, I would've exited myself. I hope things get better for you

 

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If I was smart, I would have strangled myself with my umbilical cord in the womb.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Well,
I haven't posted in here in a bit.... I usually post life stuff in the "how are you feeling thread".
After another lifesmack .... I have had enough. I'm not saying goodbye yet but if I get the courage I will CTB.
There are only so many defeats one can take. I've run out of options.
I'm tired of the attitude of picking yourself back up and trying again. Fuck that !!!!
"There is no try, there is only done"
I am so over being a wage slave so the rich can buy more yachts or rockets.
I don't know what else to say. I'm not encouraging anyone else to CTB but for me life certainly did not get better. It's been on a steady decline for years.
I 100% hate life. There is nothing good enough to make me want to stay. Not even my love of music.
I don't know what is after this. I hope peace and quiet. I want my forever sleep.
My life clock has run out. Absolutely zero energy left...

 

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Do ya noose hang low
Do ya wobble to and fro
Did ya tie it in a knot
Are ya hanging there to rot
Do ya noose hang low......

 

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I don't know why I'm a huge creep. I just repell people. It's been this way since I was young.
I creep out women and men. It would be nice to have a few guy friends. I don't get to see the ones I have now much.
I'm not into sports, so that isn't helpful. I'm not religious so I don't want to join a church group. I don't need the
preaching. Not a gamer either. I'm not sure I would even want to go to see a movie in public. I don't like crowds.
Concerts are out as well. I'm not a bar person. I just exist. I hate life so much......

Stone Temple Pilots-Creep









Forward yesterday, makes me wanna stay
What they said was real, makes me wanna steal
Livin' under house, guess I'm livin', I'm a mouse
All's I got is time, got no meanin', just a rhyme

Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal

I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be

Feelin' uninspired, think I'll start a fire
Everybody run, Bobby's got a gun
Think you're kind of neat, then she tells me I'm a creep
Friends don't mean a thing, guess I'll leave it up to me

Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal

I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be

(Half the man)

Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal

I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)
Well, I'm half the man I used to be
(For as I feel as the dawn, it fades to gray)

Well, I'm half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be

 

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Just saving this here in case I lose it. So I can find it again.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

If I was smart, I would have strangled myself with my umbilical cord in the womb.
Fear Is How I Roll !!!
How many sleeps until Forever Sleep ???
Life... 0 Stars... Would NOT Recommend !!!!

Posting this because I'm changing my signature.

 

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A song that reminds me of an ex...

Willie Nelson-There You Are








It might be in the middle of the afternoon
Maybe somewhere in the middle of the night
I might not be thinking anything at all
When a perfect stranger's face catches a certain light
And my heart jumps 'cause all at once
There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, as lovely as you'll always be
And here I go back into those memories
Where you are still in love with me
I know I'll never hold you in my arms again
I know I'll never hear you speak my name
I look around this lonely room and I can see
Your memories the only thing that hasn't changed
And I close my eyes and every time
There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, as lovely as you'll always be
And here I go back into those memories
Where you are still in love with me
There you are still in love with me