Queueing to ctb

[ReWind]

When I felt really suicidal I couldn't ctb because I was too depressed to prepare everything.
Now that I got energy and managed to prepare everything I'm not feeling depressed enough. It feels like sitting in a queue to catch the bus.

 

[Umbreon]

I think you should wait longer to decide to CTB. Hope you find peace whatever your decision is

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Same. When I had the motivation to ctb (emotional pain off the scale) I only had a shitty knife, now I have 10mm static and know how to tie the knots (anchor point unsatisfactory due to paranoia(?)) but I'm just accepting my weakness and loneliness more and more it seems. Fucking lol.