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hellworldprincess
I need things this world can't give me
- Jun 29, 2024
- 17
Are you ever mean to a person you´re close to just to realize how inconsiderate you were being right after?
I do this regularly and I´m not really sure why. I guess I´m uncontiously trying to push them away so they don´t tie me to this world but it never really does anything except making both of us feel bad.
When I´ve willingly tried to make myself push anyone away on purpose, it didn´t work because I never went through with it. So why should I be able to do so without intending (or even wanting) it in these situations?
Or maybe what´s leading me to be mean is just my stubborn nature. But that doesn´t quite fit with feeling bad and knowing what I did wrong right after.
Do you know yourself or anyone else to do similar things?
I do this regularly and I´m not really sure why. I guess I´m uncontiously trying to push them away so they don´t tie me to this world but it never really does anything except making both of us feel bad.
When I´ve willingly tried to make myself push anyone away on purpose, it didn´t work because I never went through with it. So why should I be able to do so without intending (or even wanting) it in these situations?
Or maybe what´s leading me to be mean is just my stubborn nature. But that doesn´t quite fit with feeling bad and knowing what I did wrong right after.
Do you know yourself or anyone else to do similar things?