Purpose

[supergip]

Hi everyone, this is my first post here.

I'd like to start by talking about how it seems like I don't have a great purpose in anyone's life. Some time ago, when I had more friends, they would always exclude me whenever they could. Currently, I have two friends and my mom, and that's enough. However, it still feels like no one really cares about me. They say they do, but their actions don't match their words. And on top of that, my mom has sometimes said that I was a mistake and that she regrets having me.

I want to know if anyone who has gone through or is going through this has any advice on how to react or what to think.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

They say they do, but their actions don't match their words. And on top of that, my mom has sometimes said that I was a mistake and that she regrets having me.

Bro, same. Can we be e-friends?
Feel free to PM me once you get chat access btw :)

 

[supergip]

Bro, same. Can we be e-friends?
Feel free to PM me once you get chat access btw :)

Sure! How can I call you in PM?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

And on top of that, my mom has sometimes said that I was a mistake and that she regrets having me.

What a terrible thing to say to one's child.

 

[unnormal9]

What a terrible thing to say to one's child.

Happens more times than you think; nothing surprising.

 

[SleepingLessons]

Happens more times than you think; nothing surprising.

Just cause it happens a lot doesn't mean it isn't terrible.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

Sure! How can I call you in PM?

You need to be on the forums a couple days and make a certain amount of posts. you can post in the games or offtopic section to farm posts. Once you get access, just click my name and start a private chat ^^

What a terrible thing to say to one's child.

Happens more times than you think; nothing surprising.

Just cause it happens a lot doesn't mean it isn't terrible.

I kind of wish she had just killed me as a baby honestly.

 

[supergip]

What a terrible thing to say to one's child.

Unfortunately, but I am more at peace with it now, she probably said it in the heat of the moment.

What I really only realized years later was with my grandmother, who lived with me. She said a few things, about trivial matters, like running in the street, "your father abandoned you because he knew what you were going to become", I was only 8 years old, I hadn't become anything yet, and I still haven't. Furthermore, the psychological torture she inflicted on me, from making me eat dinner in the backyard to make me feel sick, to making me eat my own vomit.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Unfortunately, but I am more at peace with it now, she probably said it in the heat of the moment.

Maybe, but to 99.9999999% of parents such words would be blasphemous.

What I really only realized years later was with my grandmother, who lived with me. She said a few things, about trivial matters, like running in the street, "your father abandoned you because he knew what you were going to become", I was only 8 years old, I hadn't become anything yet, and I still haven't. Furthermore, the psychological torture she inflicted on me, from making me eat dinner in the backyard to make me feel sick, to making me eat my own vomit.

I really don't want to say anything about anyone's parents or other relatives, but at least a few of yours seems to have real issues. I'd say they're the ones with the problems and not you. Sorry you had to experience anything like that.

 

[Little_Suzy]

Life improves for victims of horrific child abuse once they are no longer dependent on the harmful influences of their abusers.

Leave your old life behind and pursue your education or career in another country.

 

[unnormal9]

You need to be on the forums a couple days and make a certain amount of posts. you can post in the games or offtopic section to farm posts. Once you get access, just click my name and start a private chat ^^





I kind of wish she had just killed me as a baby honestly.

I wish what my ex said to me did happen: 'ur mom wished u aborted'.
I wish.

Just cause it happens a lot doesn't mean it isn't terrible.

Never said it wasn't.

 

[yyytry]

my mom has sometimes said that I was a mistake and that she regrets having me.

Very sorry. My mom said the same thing to me 3 times before she died when I was 16.
Late 30s now, and it still hurts me.

It's confusing. Going back and forth, on some days trying to believe she didn't mean it. But knowing there's gotta be some truth in it.

It's the thorn no one can pull out.