Public versus private suicide

[MisterOGBongWater]

I think when the time comes soon I'll choose private. Somewhere in the woods by myself.

However sometimes I think about jumping off the bridge or killing myself in an accident just so people can pretend to give a shit.

But that's bullshit. I don't want people to care. Just sometimes. What I really want is to be better. Sympathy is just a bandaid. I'm so fucked. I have to die. I wish I would just go through with it already. Jumping would be so painful and I can't afford a gun right now. Nor do I have a place to hide it really for the time being. I think if I would do it I'd have to have the want and the funds right then and there. Can walk out with a shotgun same day. Hopefully soon the stars will align.

I wish drug ODs were more predictable. I love getting high. Maybe I'll get my hands on some fentanyl.

 

[QuartziteGlitter]

Desperation leads many of us to the rim of deaths we do not deserve. These thoughts, I try to push away. Personally wouldn't want anyone looking at my corpse, especially not if it can be quickly understood as a suicide death.

But then again. There might be one day, when one hits their lowest, that such minutiae do not matter; one day in which the end can finally come with no adjacent doubts.

 

[Worndown]

Private is always best. No reason to drag others into your story.

 

[athiestjoe]

I am strongly leaning to private, the only public would be if it was an outstandingly high jump and due to necessity I needed to do it public by virtue of a jump but even then I would try to do it when it isn't light outside and as few people were around as possible. Even though I don't give a crap about my existence and I know a few people will be traumatized when finding me, I don't want to unecessarily mess up other people by witnessing it. With that said I respect anyone's decision and don't like to press my own views on them given I've experienced enough of judgement from people myself so I try to not judge others.

I hope you find serenity & peace.