Lara Francis
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,627
Ive seen a psychologist today as she has been asked to write a report for the court.
She does not believe I have emotional unstable personality disorder but thinks my behaviour is very impulsive.
She tells me that people are assessed by the means of a suicidal scale so to speak.
This ranges from thoughts to plans followed by the severity and number of attempts.
I went into the appointment thinking i could keep things close to my chest and maybe lightly shade over stuff but no!
She tells me that she is concerned for my life and social services are too.
My behaviour has taken me to the very egde and dangerous places with the next step being death.
She has 20 years experience with suicidal people.who was I trying to kid ?
I feel my son is even further away and may not even come back.I blew it and in 8 weeks i find out what the judges decision will be.
My suicide thoughts are related to seperation as being apart from your child is just so painful and unforgivable.
I have made an agreement with myself to put all i have left into life to prove i am trying,but will also complete my plan b preparation arrangements.
This is really it and its very sureal to think these 8 weeks could b the last ones of my life.Even I think this is a very sad story that may not end with a happy ending.I truly wish i knew my fate but time will tell.!
Thanks for reading x
She does not believe I have emotional unstable personality disorder but thinks my behaviour is very impulsive.
She tells me that people are assessed by the means of a suicidal scale so to speak.
This ranges from thoughts to plans followed by the severity and number of attempts.
I went into the appointment thinking i could keep things close to my chest and maybe lightly shade over stuff but no!
She tells me that she is concerned for my life and social services are too.
My behaviour has taken me to the very egde and dangerous places with the next step being death.
She has 20 years experience with suicidal people.who was I trying to kid ?
I feel my son is even further away and may not even come back.I blew it and in 8 weeks i find out what the judges decision will be.
My suicide thoughts are related to seperation as being apart from your child is just so painful and unforgivable.
I have made an agreement with myself to put all i have left into life to prove i am trying,but will also complete my plan b preparation arrangements.
This is really it and its very sureal to think these 8 weeks could b the last ones of my life.Even I think this is a very sad story that may not end with a happy ending.I truly wish i knew my fate but time will tell.!
Thanks for reading x
