Venting A Psychologist I Saw 9 Years Ago

[Want2DieSooooBad]

I saw a psychologist 9 years ago, "S" (I am just going to refer to her by first initial), who caused me lifetime trauma!!!!! I was 15 at the time and I was telling her about my bad home life and how I wanted to go to a foster home to get away from my parents. She completely refused to look into me getting into foster care and completely blew off my bad home situation and said "You are a very strong and intelligent young lady. You need to stop fantasizing about escaping and make the most of the situation you are in."!!!!!! For one thing, I am not "strong" and I am fu**ing (please excuse my language) tired of being told I am "strong" (and "resilient" as well)!!!! I am a very weak, helpless, powerless, and vulnerable person!!!!!!!! And secondly being told to "make the most of" my suffering is just cruel and vile!!!!!!! I think S definitely has some blame for where I am at today!! I am 24 and still living with my family!! I cannot move out and live on my own because I have a horrible disability!!! My parents also have guardianship over me!!!! I've tried to talk to them about going to a group home or going with my bf and they erupt with anger and scream at and scapegoat me and so does my brother!!! Since I am an adult now, really no one will help me!!! Child protective services won't do anything because they only handle children under 18, I tried to reach out to the YWCA for help and they cannot help with my situation and only made it much worse, the police won't help me and have made my situation way worse!!!!! Had S taken action 9 years ago to get me removed from my parents' care and into a foster home and maybe I would have even been able to get adopted and have a forever family, things may be way different now!!!! Or even better, had I just committed suicide, then I would have been spared 9 years of unimaginable and unbearable agony, anguish, disparity, and suffering!!!!

 

[Rudeus_Greyrat]

I honestly hate when people in a much better position than you end up telling you "you're strong, you can do this". Oh, how convenient it is to say that when you don't have to struggle with depression, and with a total lack of meaning in your life, because you're not dumb enough to numb yourself in front of the pain and the horrible reality that is this world?

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Hey, where do you live? There might be some resources available specifically for disabled adults in abuse situations like yours. You can also try calling APS (adult protections services).

I feel like we need to start trying to create more services for adults on abuse situations too, instead of just expecting them to move out. Moving out isn't an option for many adults who are being abused by their parents, since, just like in the case of IPV, trying to get away can be hard and dangerous.

 

[Want2DieSooooBad]

Hey, where do you live? There might be some resources available specifically for disabled adults in abuse situations like yours. You can also try calling APS (adult protections services).

I feel like we need to start trying to create more services for adults on abuse situations too, instead of just expecting them to move out. Moving out isn't an option for many adults who are being abused by their parents, since, just like in the case of IPV, trying to get away can be hard and dangerous.

My family has scared me too much to reach out anywhere anymore!!!!! I am tired of being yelled at and scapegoated..every time I talk about wanting to go to a group home!!!!! They yell "WHY DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WITH STRANGEEERRRRRSSSSSSS?!!!!!!!!" It is literally unbearable!!!!!!!

And I am elated that you understand that moving out just isn't an option for me, due to my horrible disability. I am sick and tired of being told to just move out!!!!!!!