Psychiatrist AND psychologist fucked with me today, seriously contemplating plunging myself in the lungs.

[CTB Fella]

I have the perfect knife.

Just the right length, and it's very sturdy.

I'll do it in the bath.

Either that, or wait (WAIT, FUCKING WAIT WAIT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!) until Thursday and jump.

But I'll make it special, I'll douse myself in petrol, and set myself on fire before I jump.

I'm having a drink now, and listening to my exit playlist.

If I can generate the anger/bollocks, I'll just plunge myself tonight.

I'm not fucking about with these lying CUNTS anymore.

I'll show them what I'm made of.

For the record, been sectioned 28 times for SERIOUS overdoses. Life support, comas, the lot. But I haven't stockpiled, so that's not an option.

But I am ANGRY, and want to make this one violent.

Pray for me, or whatever you do, that it happens quickly.

See you on the other side.

Jackson x.

 

[bipolar22]

Maybe you should have few drinks and it will cool you down. Doing things in anger never leads to good outcomes.
These 'experts' or what they call themselves just want to make their money. They really don't give a fuck if you plunge yourself or burn yourself to death your only causing more suffering to yourself. And they still get their money at the months end.
Why not go out nice and pieceful instead? Just my thoughts. You do what you think is best for you.

 

[http-410]

Would you like to share what your psychologist and psychiatrist did so that we can better understand what's going? As someone who has also been screwed by therapists and institutions, I wonder if you don't you think you can also make a statement by not killing yourself because of them? Are those fucking around with you really worth it?

 

[divinemistress36]

Im sorry you are going through all this bs OP. These doctors often just fuck us up more

 

[deadbidaylight]

Please don't make your death more violent and painful for yourself because of them. They won't feel it, but you will.

You have every right to decide what to do as far as living or dying, but it's hard to support someone wanting to really hurt themselves in the process for the sake of other people.

I get that you want to die. My wish for you would be that you would give yourself enough grace to go peacefully or in the least, quickly. You deserve that. These people don't deserve your pain.

Please be kind to yourself, even in the end.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I will pray for you as best I can. I too considered going out in blaze. Good luck to you, I hope it's quick and the next round is what you deserve, as we all deserve <3

 

[deadbidaylight]

Are you still with us?

 

[CTB Fella]

Are you still with us?

I'm still here.

Thank you for all of your comments, and well wishes.

I can be very spontaneous (EUPD & OCD) so when it happens, it happens.