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MyTimeIsUp
Perhaps I'll be important when I'm long gone?
- Feb 27, 2024
- 289
Hiya guys
I am not insane, but they are making out I am. Bare in mind I am not on medication, because my mood isn't the issue. I'm not depressed. I am a very traumatised individual.
Since trying to advocate for myself, things are changing. Yesterday someone knocked on my door to do a 'security check' and asked if I needed to speak to the doctor. Because I said I don't feel listened to. I expressed it again, and I was again, asked if I was going to hurt myself, do I feel safe, why don't you come out of your room so you're safe etc. Wtf? It's staff I don't feel safe around.
The reason I was sectioned was because where I was living FORCED them. It was either section me or kick me out.
The reason I told this person, albeit a professional (not MH).- she told me things about herself and she led me to believe it was OK, because she said she believes anyone should be able to end their life if they want to. Next thing I know, she is ringing all day and telling the crisis team etc 'if you don't section her, she's getting kicked out'. She did this ALL DAY, and told several people. Including the doctors that sectioned me.
I've read my care plan. The reason why I wanted to die isn't even on there (it is trauma, but very specific)... they haven't even got the area of the UK I was living correct on it, it is hundreds of miles from where they've put lmao. They have added a medical issue I've never had in my life, and have been tested for but it was years ago and all negative. Wtf. They've added shit and twisted it. Made out like I'm a chronic self harmer when it is RARE for me, and I don't cut. I didn't even say all this. I said it was rare. I'm in here for intent to end my life.
They're making out I am delusional, when I am not
I was sane when I arrived. Now I am not
They have taken my dignity. I have nothing left.
Everything changes when you start to speak up.
I am so scared.
Not only has my mental health declined, so has my physical health and rapidly. No one cares about you. You're deemed as insane.
I am a shell of a person now.
What did I do to deserve this?
There's a lot that's happened in here, that I can't go into, because I don't want to identify myself
Someone please talk to me on this thread.
Someone PLEASE believe me. PLEASE. I promise I am not fucking insane. Please. I am begging you. Believe me. Someone.
I can't do this alone. I have no family to help me, and no friends to help me.
I'm so scared someone will see this
I am not insane, but they are making out I am. Bare in mind I am not on medication, because my mood isn't the issue. I'm not depressed. I am a very traumatised individual.
Since trying to advocate for myself, things are changing. Yesterday someone knocked on my door to do a 'security check' and asked if I needed to speak to the doctor. Because I said I don't feel listened to. I expressed it again, and I was again, asked if I was going to hurt myself, do I feel safe, why don't you come out of your room so you're safe etc. Wtf? It's staff I don't feel safe around.
The reason I was sectioned was because where I was living FORCED them. It was either section me or kick me out.
The reason I told this person, albeit a professional (not MH).- she told me things about herself and she led me to believe it was OK, because she said she believes anyone should be able to end their life if they want to. Next thing I know, she is ringing all day and telling the crisis team etc 'if you don't section her, she's getting kicked out'. She did this ALL DAY, and told several people. Including the doctors that sectioned me.
I've read my care plan. The reason why I wanted to die isn't even on there (it is trauma, but very specific)... they haven't even got the area of the UK I was living correct on it, it is hundreds of miles from where they've put lmao. They have added a medical issue I've never had in my life, and have been tested for but it was years ago and all negative. Wtf. They've added shit and twisted it. Made out like I'm a chronic self harmer when it is RARE for me, and I don't cut. I didn't even say all this. I said it was rare. I'm in here for intent to end my life.
They're making out I am delusional, when I am not
I was sane when I arrived. Now I am not
They have taken my dignity. I have nothing left.
Everything changes when you start to speak up.
I am so scared.
Not only has my mental health declined, so has my physical health and rapidly. No one cares about you. You're deemed as insane.
I am a shell of a person now.
What did I do to deserve this?
There's a lot that's happened in here, that I can't go into, because I don't want to identify myself
Someone please talk to me on this thread.
Someone PLEASE believe me. PLEASE. I promise I am not fucking insane. Please. I am begging you. Believe me. Someone.
I can't do this alone. I have no family to help me, and no friends to help me.
I'm so scared someone will see this