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TheOneFreeDude

TheOneFreeDude

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Dec 8, 2024
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Are you drowning in debt? You're just going to kill yourself, why bother?
Are you a total failure in pretty much every field a human being can fail? You're opting out, why care?
With a set date, nothing else matters. Peace approaches and everything loses meaning.
I'll jump from the tallest building I can find in January, so all problems just melt away.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,019
Wise words indeed. For me, I just don't have a good method yet. I wish I could just do harikiri boldly. I'm already a shame to my people. I wish society would actually give an option to end it fast instead of judging someone like me as a failure and looking down on me, and then blaming me if I use toxic coping methods like drugs when I just want a break from the shame. Sort of like when they marooned seamen on an island they at least had the decency to give him a loaded pistol.
 
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undecidedfool

I'm just here.
Oct 29, 2024
13
I relate to this a lot. Unfortunately I've done this in the past too, where I stopped caring about my problems then chickened out of ctb, leaving bigger problems than what I started with.
That's why this time around I'm carrying on as if everything is fine until my last day. It's an honestly miserable tactic, but it'll at least help if I pussy out or, God forbid, manage to fail at shooting myself.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,082
Still have to wake up every day until then.
 
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foreverlanguish

foreverlanguish

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ sleepy in a heaven's sprawl
Dec 7, 2024
148
It's nice having a date, makes me feel excited and def nervous. It's setting a date to me that makes me realize that soon all my shit will be over. None of it matters anymore. It'll just be another meaningless thing in the past.
 
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turnaround

Member
Nov 20, 2024
45
Having my date has a sense of freedom.

When your mind, your soul, your heart is already dead, you just need finish the body.

I'm all those things you've mentioned and more. I'll be homeless, I have to give my cat away, my only person, my career is ruined and I'm too old to start over. Don't even get me started on my mind. It's a rotten mess, all the wires are corroded.

Choosing a date has power.
I have two ctb methods, my last dance is to jump off my balcony. I'll do it in the middle of the night on Saturday if my attempt doesn't work tomorrow.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies. Forever 22.
Apr 25, 2023
1,084
I'm probably gonna attempt next Thursday and feel exactly the same.

Fuck everything now.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
This would be nice for me if I could opt out
 
pointblank

pointblank

digicore glitz° • ✧
Dec 12, 2024
202
Are you drowning in debt? You're just going to kill yourself, why bother?
Are you a total failure in pretty much every field a human being can fail? You're opting out, why care?
With a set date, nothing else matters. Peace approaches and everything loses meaning.
I'll jump from the tallest building I can find in January, so all problems just melt away.
Facts, and facts.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,302
It's fun until you get up there and can not make yourself jump. Then you are stuck facing life you have made even worse for yourself. I had this attitude once. I went from being responsible and healthy to losing a good bit of savings and getting fat because I thought "fuck it, I'm going to die anyway". That was six months ago and I regret having that attitude. Now, my philosophy is to just keep living day to day as normal until my last.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,730
The fact that there are no disadvantages to not existing is certainly why it personally appeals to me, I only hope to never suffer ever again, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious with this cruel, futile existence finally all forgotten about, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.
 
LukaParrot

LukaParrot

Student
Dec 18, 2024
158
I think it's import to have a date, maybe because i'm very methodical.

In my determined timespan, i'm allowing myself to do whatever i want (that not affect anyone, sure), for me, it's a relief and moment to "enjoying" what's left from my oldself. Helps to clear and calm my mind a little.

When the time comes and i give up, no shame, it's my life.
 
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sla_porra22

Member
Nov 5, 2024
15
Are you drowning in debt? You're just going to kill yourself, why bother?
Are you a total failure in pretty much every field a human being can fail? You're opting out, why care?
With a set date, nothing else matters. Peace approaches and everything loses meaning.
I'll jump from the tallest building I can find in January, so all problems just melt away.
The only thing I'm missing is a method. I wish I could have easy access to firearms or extremely tall buildings. I've had this thought for a while now.
 

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