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anyoneshorizon
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- Jun 8, 2022
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I have posted very similar post like these a lot of times but idc. I am getting very tired of feeling so bad of who I am and what I look like. I really hate living like this. I feel physically uncomfortable all the time especially talking or smiling. I don't have any real friends and it's because of this anxiety surrounding my appearance. I know some people think that's it's not a big deal but it really does feel like the end of the world to me. I look at the mirror or into a camera I just feel so disgusted and try to figure out what's wrong with me. Sometimes I feel I can fix myself others times I think there's no point. I avoid going out just to not show my face because I know i would be too uncomfortable to enjoy whatever im doing. I know I can make friends and can talk to people I have and sometimes do but it's like I've made a barrier or like a prison. It doesn't matter what people say to me like if they say I look good or no one cares what you look like I still feel the same. I think I will always feel like this always and it is miserable so I think my only option is killing myself. I don't know when people say planned suicides work best so I think maybe during Christmas or some random weekend. Idk.