Story Pretending to be happy.

[Innerdemon1]

I've suffered with my me tal health since I was a child, the first time I saw a psychiatrists I was 6. As I've got older it's just got worse and worse. I put on a smile and I make people laugh but no one knows what I'm battling inside, I'm never really happy. To make things worse I'm a gambling addict and have got myself in a lot of debt it's the only thing that makes me really feel something but it also makes my family hate me.
This is the last few days I will be around as I just can't pretend anymore, life's to much. I don't think I was ever meant for this world I've never fitted in and bad things have happened to me that I can't get over but I hope once I've gone ill finally find peace.

 

[Lucylissa]

I've had depression (diagnosed) from the age of 15. Although apparently I was always a whinging kid. I had a gambling addiction at 8 with fruit machines. It's all started up again with instant lottery online. I've no money but anything I do get it, goes to the people that own the lottery company (because I'm not getting any back) it doesn't deter me as I enjoy it, I do I when I'm happy and when I'm angry. Before that I had a shopping addiction, I'd buy anything and everything of Amazon eBay etc.. I'm a serial escaper!! Sorry this doesn't help, I've got a very short attention span and forgot what the main point was meant to be. I think if that's how you cope, that's fine. I'm not going to tell you off!!

 

[TheSuicidalEccentric]

I had Tourette's syndrome and potentially have Aspergers, but my parents never got me help when i was younger and just yelled at me for doing dumb shit. Now my own life is ruined as I never saw a psychiatrist beforehand, and made bad decisions that got myself into legal trouble and a ruined life. It is time for me to die man fuck

 

[socrates]

I'm so sorry, no one should have to pretend to be happy. And dealing with this shit since you were 6 must have been brutal. i've been dealing with this stuff since I was a teenager so I can somewhat relate. It's good to vent those emotions, don't let them fester inside of you making your self more miserable.

I had Tourette's syndrome and potentially have Aspergers, but my parents never got me help when i was younger and just yelled at me for doing dumb shit. Now my own life is ruined as I never saw a psychiatrist beforehand, and made bad decisions that got myself into legal trouble and a ruined life. It is time for me to die man fuck

When your kid is sick you take them to the doctor, with mental health it's no different. It drives me nuts how so many parents just ignore their kids mental health.

 

[TheSuicidalEccentric]

I'm so sorry, no one should have to pretend to be happy. And dealing with this shit since you were 6 must have been brutal. i've been dealing with this stuff since I was a teenager so I can somewhat relate. It's good to vent those emotions, don't let them fester inside of you making your self more miserable.

When your kid is sick you take them to the doctor, with mental health it's no different. It drives me nuts how so many parents just ignore their kids mental health.

Yeah it sucks and plus I'm only 18 just got out of high school all fresh and now here I am with my dreams gone, opportunities gone, reputation destroyed etc. I was too scared to ask for help when's I was little I wish they forced me to see a psychiatrist but idk the past is done with and it's time to die fucking FUCK FUCK FUCK