yaxleyblue
Member
- Oct 24, 2023
- 8
I'm stuck between the rock and the hard place. My only close family, Mum, is in a care home, with cancer as well as other medical issues and sadly is suffering from confusion - some days worse than others. I can no longer have a serious conversation with her. I'm about to lose our local authority owned home of over 40 years and having to dispose of countless personal possessions, many with sentimental value, because the only alternative accommodation I've been offered is literally no larger than a prison cell with no space for even a single visitor to sit and enjoy a cup of tea. The costs of renting/running said accommodation will all but bankrupt me as I am single and on a low salary and I don't qualify for any financial help. So I've effectively lost everything I've ever lived and worked for. The thought of spending the next 20 or so years alone and in solitary confinement makes me feel physically sick. I have a method to ctb in mind which I hope would prove successful. I think it's the only way I can find any peace and escape the constant worrying. Spending my life alone and worrying about paying bills or if I can afford groceries is not, in my opinion, living. And I see no point in existing if there is no benefit to me of doing so. I have prepared my Will, written instructions for my funeral and made other preparations so that my affairs can be wrapped up efficiently after I've gone. I simply don't see a way out of this mess. I'm not looking for sympathy or anything, just wanted somewhere to note my feelings where others might understand.
