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[paparoach]

Hi all,

So having ordered SN, and generally decided on Promethazine as an anti-emetic, I believe the next 3 weeks will by the make or break for if I CTB.

There is a chance I don't: I feel stronger knowing I have the quiet choice at hand, and believe I can survive my troubles, but if I return to the extended depressive state I experienced, then this will be my shutdown ceremony.

1. End all medication, as currently I'm on weight loss injections, and don't want these to interact with SN, as the medication affects hunger signals and food processing. This is likely to take a minimum of 1 week, probably 2.
2. Use Google Takeout to download all Google Photos, go through them and delete anything not joyful, upload them all to facebook.
3. Declutter my house, anything that can fit in the public waste bin can go there, anything else can just be donated.
4. Clean: I was never a fan of cleaning because I knew the mess would come back, now I know it won't.
5. Evaluate if my life and it's prospect really are unbearable and at the end. If I'd have been given the easy quite route previously, I would've taken it, I know the mental pain I need to be in.
6. Go to the City Center, eat my favourite Thai ramen noodle bowl, watch a film, perhaps have a drink.
7. Waste one day once more, really contemplating if it's the end. Don't eat or drink alcohol, prepare SN ingredients.
8. Take anti-emetics, watch YouTube, drink SN, play "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" on Spotify on repeat, put my sleeping mask on and lie in bed.

I may update this. I'm not leaving any notes, not making phonecalls, not making a scene, not dragging others into it.

Thanks for reading,
-p

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find relief from suffering in whatever you decide.

 

[paparoach]

Between 5 and 6:

• Get a haircut and shave

Between 7 and 8:

• Prepare a hot water bottle, lock my door, a single note: "Do not revive or prolong. Please cremate."

 

[human909]

I hope you find the peace that you've been searching for and good luck.