NotGoneButNotHere
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- Nov 3, 2019
- 45
The main method I have come to choose after some time on here is SN. I already ordered my package from a certain seller some of you here know and when it gets closer to being delivered I am going to look into the antiemetic and other things I will need. It is going to be probably about a month or so before everything is together so I thought while I wait I might as well work on a plan B which for me is partial hanging. This is a method I have returned to a couple times as I believe it to be fairly painless so long as you can find the dreaded sweet spot. I have already done research on the knots required and I have chosen a ligature I think will be effective. I figure if I get lucky and nail a good technique then I can skip the wait and end my suffering sooner. Worst case if it doesnt workout, I can just go through with SN instead which is also fine for me. I'm not neccesarily in a rush as I have learned my lesson about trying to force this kind of thing in the past, but the sooner I can CTB the better. I have had some failed attempts in the past involving prescription medications, fentanyl, and hanging but now with my increased knowledge and continued research I hope to be out sometime around the end of December - beginning of January. If I end up going the route of SN I will be making a thread with a couple updates on my last day as I know some of you here are interested in first hand information involving the method. I also don't really have anyone close to me who knows the extent of what I deal with so it would be nice to not be totally alone in my last hours.
