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- Feb 12, 2023
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i live with two of my brothers and our schedules are very similar, so there's always someone with me. not to mention, they come in my room very often—even in the middle of the night and early in the morning.
anyways, i'm guaranteed to be alone for at least 4 hours tomorrow, which never happens. i want to try partial again. i doubt i'll get another opportunity like this anytime soon, so it feels like i need to do it.
i know everyone says that it's best to have at least 24 hours of alone time when you ctb, but i'd like to get more opinions. i'm under the assumption that this is more of a suggestion and not an actual requirement. i'm just really scared of failing. if i prepare everything tonight and then begin the attempt as soon as i'm alone, then it should be fine, right?
if i can't do it tomorrow, then i'll most likely have to wait a few more months. i need to be over asap. after feeling empty for a while, things are starting to feel overwhelming and unbearable again. dawg i cannot go back to having multiple anxiety attacks a day, breaking down at work, fearing sleep, and panicking the moment i wake up. still, i'm very scared of failing and i'm not certain if hanging tomorrow is a good idea considering the time frame. i just need some clarification and opinions.
anyways, i'm guaranteed to be alone for at least 4 hours tomorrow, which never happens. i want to try partial again. i doubt i'll get another opportunity like this anytime soon, so it feels like i need to do it.
i know everyone says that it's best to have at least 24 hours of alone time when you ctb, but i'd like to get more opinions. i'm under the assumption that this is more of a suggestion and not an actual requirement. i'm just really scared of failing. if i prepare everything tonight and then begin the attempt as soon as i'm alone, then it should be fine, right?
if i can't do it tomorrow, then i'll most likely have to wait a few more months. i need to be over asap. after feeling empty for a while, things are starting to feel overwhelming and unbearable again. dawg i cannot go back to having multiple anxiety attacks a day, breaking down at work, fearing sleep, and panicking the moment i wake up. still, i'm very scared of failing and i'm not certain if hanging tomorrow is a good idea considering the time frame. i just need some clarification and opinions.
