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- Apr 21, 2019
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LOLThis is likely going to up up on some grad college paper. Good thing no one cares about grad papers.
Thank you for sharing your story. I grew up Christian too. Though in a fundamentalist christian family with no TV, radio, or college. Yeah it was that bad. But when I eventually grew out of it I became a universalist with a christian leaning. I now believe the prophets of the bible were not perfect including Jesus, they were just perfect enough and God honored that and rewarded them.To answer your question, I would prefer oblivion, to simply cease to exist. Barring that, if there is reincarnation, it should be optional. This life is too painful; I don't want to remember it. I don't want to spend eternity ruminating over mistakes made in this life. I would rather fade into the aether.
But I do object to the mean-spirited, hateful, punitive concepts of heaven/hell proffered by the Islamic-Judeo-Christian traditions. I was raised as a Christian and was pretty devout; but I had never really READ the Bible. When I was in college, I decided to actually read the Bible from cover to cover because I thought it would strengthen my relationship with and bring me closer to Biblegod and Biblejesus. I was horrified to find that the "loving" God I worshipped was a petty, mean spirited, hateful bully. I became an atheist overnight.
However, as I got older, I backslid from hardcore atheism to benign agnosticism. I developed a grudging appreciation for how Christianity was a source of succor and strength for my ancestors as they suffered through chattel slavery and Jim Crow. How could I not? I have warm memories of watching my grandmother cook breakfast, turn on the radio to the gospel station, and carefully iron her white usher's uniform on Sunday mornings.
You see, the Black church was the only place her generation could go and be somebody. My grandmother had a third grade education (she was taken out of school to pick cotton and do farm work) and worked menial jobs her entire life. She spent most of her adult life under the scourge of the Jim Crow Deep South, where she did domestic work, janitorial work, and other menial jobs. Being an usher made her feel like she was a part of something — the Black church gave her a sense of belonging, a title, a position of importance. She rarely missed a Sunday and she served as an usher even while she suffered through the cancer that would take her life. Her devotion to a deity that did not deserve her loyalty angers me and moves me to tears. She was better than that POS Biblegod.
So, if you were to take me to an old Black church in the Deep South, I would be the first to shed a tear when the choir sings a spiritual. Like it or not, Christianity is a part of my culture and heritage. However, I still despise Biblegod (I require another thread to discuss how much I hate him) and have no desire to spend eternity with him and his friends. The only part of heaven that appeals to me is the opportunity to meet my grandmother again. I know she will be disappointed in the choice I will shortly make, but I would love the opportunity to see and talk to her again.
This is an anonymous poll. LOL By commenting your not anonymous anymore. LOLNone of your business
I suspect it has to do with culture, but there could be a genetic component.Why are so many white people depressed I wonder.
IDK man, those are questions for sociologists.I always envied black people from the US in the fact that they seem to form strong bonds with their peers. I was antisocial due to bad luck mainly and very little to choose from.
I think growing up a black dude it's easier to form bonds thanks to their culture. Those bonds are so strong that even with the alarming low quality of life a lot of them suffer, they seem less prone to mental issues.I may be wrong in assuming this but just a theory.
And yeah. Whites can be cold as fuck. I'm white btw.
I find that Asian culture seem to be more backwards than most in regards to intrapersonal normality.Asian. But, I don't feel proud to be one.
Thanks for your concern, but I'm still confident about my anonymity. Let's face it, my parents would need to have been pretty sick to have named me Superfluous.By commenting you're not anonymous anymore.
Right, so if your anonymous online, who gives a shit if you participate in some random poll? Nobody, saying it was none of my "business". I mean it's not like I am asking for your phone number in a poll. LOL Now that would be none of my fucking business.Thanks for your concern, but I'm still confident about my anonymity. Let's face it, my parents would need to have been pretty sick to have named me Superfluous.
Im black in south africa, i have a few white friends most are mixed so they claim to be coloured. But i know of mostly of blacks who commited suicide.I always envied black people from the US in the fact that they seem to form strong bonds with their peers. I was antisocial due to bad luck mainly and very little to choose from.
I think growing up a black dude it's easier to form bonds thanks to their culture. Those bonds are so strong that even with the alarming low quality of life a lot of them suffer, they seem less prone to mental issues.I may be wrong in assuming this but just a theory.
And yeah. Whites can be cold as fuck. I'm white btw.
I see. It's just I never hear of black people mental issues nearly as much as white. As if you guys are more resilient. But it's just a baseless assumption. I'm sorry for your lossesIm b
Im black in south africa, i have a few white friends most are mixed so they claim to be coloured. But i know of mostly of blacks who commited suicide.
I don't think it is resilience. It is more of a cultural brainwash to percievectb as a failure. But as i read suicide was a viable option to black slaves during the middle passage, and it is still an option today.I see. It's just I never hear of black people mental issues nearly as much as white. As if you guys are more resilient. But it's just a baseless
assumption. I'm sorry for your losses