Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[whosready4tmrw]

Never, too scared of the consequences of seeking help.

It's just not worth it, no matter what anyone says. If you get it and they force you to live, they're just gonna make your life hell anyways.

 

[starryend]

I've tried both therapy and medication, It seems sort of ineffective for me. Also very hesitant to be completely honest with my therapist. It feels like they just give me some generic advice out of a brochure and then charge me an arm and a leg.

 

[slowlydying2mrrw]

I've been under mh services for the best part of a decade now and, numerous times, have had short courses of therapy which have provided slight relief in the moment, although this has never been sustained post-treatment. I've now been accepted onto a longer term MBT (mentalisation-based therapy) course for my BPD, which I've heard has been really helpful for other people, so I am hopeful but this is a last resort for me. I do not wish to spend the rest of my life in and out of treatment, taking medication several times per day, and if I'm no better after completing this therapy then I believe I was not meant to be.

I have BPD and notice I project a sense of perfectionism in the therapists I've seen for it, that their mistakes are the reasons why I can't see them. I've had one who mixed details of my case with someone else, and another one on betterhelp who was suggested to me based on my personalized issues and they admitted to me they never dealt with borderline personality disorder.... I've only had one therapist where it did work, but she knew me as a child in therapy and we developed a genuine relationship.

Do you ever feel that way in your situation?

 

[LoveMumTTMAB]

I had a therapist for a few months before covid started.
He was amazing! He was a great listener, he knew exactly when to interject, and respond like a friendly human. He was helpful in the sense that I finally had someone to talk to, and who responded back in a way that made me feel happy. That man had loads of empathy and it showed.
I moved to the UK a few years ago, and have not been able to make friends locally, so I really needed someone like that.
He also gave me a few tools to deal with anxiety, which I still use.

I have been struggling so much these past few years, with deep deep sadness, and difficulty dealing with society in general, completely crumbling in the face of expectations and obligations. I have finally been able to see a psychiatrist through the NHS after a 6 year wait, to have an ADHD and autism evaluation.

That psychiatric consultation was awful! the doctor had lost my diagnostic test, he had not even read it. I had done a lot of introspection and taken notes based on the questions on that test.
Instead, he insisted to have a casual conversation where he asked me very open ended questions. I really struggled to remember on the fly what could be relevant for adhd/autism. He interjected in the weirdest places. He kept insisting that "that's nice, kids these days don't have nice experiences like that" (ok, I saw ponies when I was 3 years old, that doesn't mean I am now cured, what the hell?!) He also was annoyed whenever I asked him to explain better what he was asking. He refused to expand on anything, he kept telling me to just answer his questions. He was robotic and as neutral as possible, right there in the uncanny valley of human behaviour. I saw no empathy in him, nothing seemed geniuine besides his irritation.

I ended up just giving him a bland overview of my entire life, with very few relevant point for sure.
He then told me I had ADHD and autism traits, but we all do, and that it doesn't mean I have ADHD or autism. He prescribed an SSRI. I have yet to have my follow up consultation scheduled, so I have no help until they remember I exist.
I did have a couple of good days since I started medication little more than a month ago, but I mostly have mediocre days, or awful ones when I really have to fight the urge to end it all from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep.

I think I had too much faith in the help that was coming. The hope that help was coming was what kept me going for 6 years since I had asked for that referral.

hey! Are you at university / if not yet, do you plan on going? I actually got diagnosed for free through a diagnosis group/organisation that works within Unis, it's not very spoken about and they try to keep it under the radar to avoid blocking that waitlist up as well keeping it only for people they think 'really' need it. I only had to wait 2 months via that process so if you are at university or planning to go it's a great resource for a diagnosis!!

 

[meiherasoru_]

I haven't been to therapy for a year; I don't need help

 

[Al_stargate]

Nah I dont believe in it. Psychiatry just makes things worse, like ruin your health with psych drugs or having to pay therapist obscene amount of money for them to nod along and say hmmmm. It's all fugazzi, you can only help yourself really if thats possible. Others will just gaslight you and even try to take advantage of your volnurable situation.

 

[throwawaygirl]

Lots of therapy and medications since I was a kid, hasn't helped and on occasion has made stuff much worse.

 

[sanctionedusage]

medication helped; now i dont need it anymore

tried therapy for anorexia; developed worse anorexia, ocd, agoraphobia, and became disabled as a result of therapy abuse lololol

 

[coldworld]

i was on meds and i guess all it did was prevent me from wanting to off myself but it never made me happy so i stopped, i would rather feel my true raw emotions, even if it kills me one day. i think i was meant to die by my own hand in this life and surpressing it made me miserable and numb and i think ssris are evil they made me feel like a robot never happy never sad never anything everything felt fake..therapy, i dont think those mind games would work on me.

 

[descending]

No, counselling never did much for me. Have been on and off various meds for most of my adult life but I think my issues are deep rooted from childhood and not really something shoving fluoxetine down myself every morning can help with.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

shocked so many people in the poll results actually are currently in-therapy & on-medication but then again i never felt more suicidal than when i was in therapy, god bless 'em for trying.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm on a few pills right now and I think Abilify is the bad one. Wellbutrin helps with depression, propranolol with anxiety, and trazodone with sleep. Abilify seems to make me both dumb and anxious.

 

[michaaaaaal]

I see a therapist once a week but there isn't much you can do with an objectively bleak life. I used to take an SSRI on and off all my life but not anymore as I'm worried it'll make me less likely to CTB.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Stopping taking meds sounds like a problem but man, do I feel a lot better without Abilify. I think Wellbutrin was giving me anxiety too. I take trazodone at night but I tend to wake up in the wee hours after weird dreams.

I'm cruising on a big coffee and some vape this morning. I'd like to get off them too. I have long thought that a drugfree brain might heal. My memories and thoughts are still painful but I'm actually feeling something like relaxation, which is nice.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Stopping taking meds sounds like a problem but man, do I feel a lot better without Abilify. I think Wellbutrin was giving me anxiety too. I take trazodone at night but I tend to wake up in the wee hours after weird dreams.

I'm cruising on a big coffee and some vape this morning. I'd like to get off them too. I have long thought that a drugfree brain might heal. My memories and thoughts are still painful but I'm actually feeling something like relaxation, which is nice.

No pills yesterday. Already feeling better

 

[Strangerdanger7]

Tons of therapy, tons of medication. The only good thing is that after all these years, nobody can blame me for not trying.

That is my argument, hey, everyone's tried it your way. What effective results have we gotten from it? That would be none. So let's repeat the definition of insanity over and over again, expecting a new result. That's not an eternal hamster wheel. We want to continue running on.

Stopping taking meds sounds like a problem but man, do I feel a lot better without Abilify. I think Wellbutrin was giving me anxiety too. I take trazodone at night but I tend to wake up in the wee hours after weird dreams.

I'm cruising on a big coffee and some vape this morning. I'd like to get off them too. I have long thought that a drugfree brain might heal. My memories and thoughts are still painful but I'm actually feeling something like relaxation, which is nice.

Trazodone is not an aid for sleep. They gave it to me years ago. I was like, " This is garbage. It does not help you fall asleep. Could you please return my Lunesta, at least? It didn't do much better, but it was an improvement.
Really the only one that works is Ambien.

 

[whocaresnobodycares]

Taking medication forever, various types. It's a very weak, unpredictable bandage for problems it can't fix in me.

I plan on seeing a shrink soon, but I don't expect much, nor would I tell them 99% of what I type here.
Would I tell them I've been on here more than ever? HAHAHAHA, would I FUCK! Absolutely never ever.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

@Strangerdanger7 idk, trazodone seems to make me drowsy

 

[Strangerdanger7]

OnMyLast Legs:
@Strangerdanger7 idk, trazodone seems to make me drowsy
It did nothing for me, no drowsiness, nothing.

 

[ToANewWorld]

No. Because I am not mentally ill. Most people in my situation would do exactly what I am doing.

 

[Abort!]

Therapy was always nothing but a waste of time. Medication only ever made my rumination and depression intensify. I don't think my issues stem from chemical imbalances so much as they do from existential deficiencies. I've seen therapy and meds work great for some individuals however, so I'm not hand-waving them off completely. Just not for me.

 

[LastLightFade...]

I haven't been to therapy in so long didn't really get to do it truly because when I did have to do it (last time I was around 14), my mom would stay there, and I couldn't rant, she made me do phone appointments instead of in person. I would love to try therapy once I can afford it, not sure when that'll be, though I think I do need to at least try to get help and try in life before I make the ultimate decision to commit suicide.

 

[Nighthawk]

Nope. I learned to deal with my mental health on my own. But if someone's recieving therapy/professional mh and it's working for them, then ofc they have my full support and i highly recommend them to continue.

 

[silenthill3]

I've actually needed help since i was a kid but my family never thought it was serious. Took me doing something that destroyed all my values and perception of myself to finally get help and now i don't see the point at all. The timing stings so bad. Currently on meds but hopefully not for much longer.

 

[readytogo1959]

I've had countless therapists, a psychiatrist, and so many different meds since I was a small kid. I've tried so hard, but I feel like nothing has truly worked or has given me the will to live. I really wish something had worked, sometimes.

 

[AlwaysAnhedonia]

Tons of therapy, tons of medication. The only good thing is that after all these years, nobody can blame me that I didn't try.

I feel this too. Tired of the cycles, been sober 2 /12 years. Therapy, meds. Exhausted I'm back in the same pit I tried so hard to climb out if

 

[lakefish]

i did for some time, but it was bad, it didn´t help, and person concentrated on other stuff so i cut him off

 

[aRose]

Yes I've had Tons of therapy and no i don't want more - I want the other people around me to get therapy!

 

[annasplight]

i've tried therapy numerous times, and i'm currently on several medications. It helps some days, but being stuck with my abuser instantly undos whatever the meds are doing. so take that as you will