Venting ( Poem. ) All alone, beside my bottle

[rottensymbol]

( Something I wrote, for me, myself and I, but I thought maybe I could post it somewhere, like a neat little online journal. Just so sit and sob at the screen. )

( A little something I wrote.
It may be bad, ugly, and not well written.
But I put myself into this, when I screamed at my wall for 4 hours, ripping my hair out. )



i feel my heart beating in my chest
at 22 and all alone
a bottle of whiskey at hand

i have seen my friends
the ones i love, i wished to be
fall into the arms of a loved one
happy and beyond the horizon

i feel my tongue getting numb,
the taste of bitterness and sorrow
wasting me away

i am bitter they are happy
i am mad that i am not

i am bitter because i was never loved
i was never loved the way they are

the way they spin in their arms,
as they kiss and hold eachother
the golden rings straining against their skin

i sit alone, in despair
i cannot feel what they do
i will never feel what bliss is

i will never be fulfilled.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I'm sorry that you ended up on this forum but anyway welcome!

I'm glad you expressed your feelings and can read your poem

i was never loved the way they are

I'm so sorry you weren't loved the way they are.
I wish I had words to solace you,
but I don't as I'm no Shakespeare,
so I send you hearts of yellow and blue

There are many compassionate people here.
Your torment seems to be too great to be relieved, but I hope your life will be less unbearable

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