Cyber4ngel!

Cyber4ngel!

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Aug 24, 2024
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I can't even write, so this isn't going to be like my other threads that are long, my boyfriend just broke up with me.

I am living with him because I am homeless, I only have enough from my savings to pay for my food and my things, I don't use anything of his.

I have a beautiful cat and I love him; he's living with us.

My boyfriend just broke up with me, he said he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and that I should find a place to live because he's going to kick me out.

I have absolutely no family, and I only have one friend, but it's completely impossible for me to live in her house.

I'm devastated, I'm so scared. I love my boyfriend, I want him to be my boyfriend and forgive me. I spent hours crying and begging him, but it was no use.

I need a safe place for my cat, I don't even have a job, I need to end it now urgently, I don't even want to do it but I can't take this anymore, I can't live without my boyfriend, without my cat, and on the street. Please, someone help, someone say something, do something, please, someone, I beg you, please, please, please, I don't want this, I don't want to end it, I want my boyfriend and my cat, please, I need a safe place, please, there has to be someone, please, help.

Onlyv fkin reason this has good spelling is because I use a translator please kill me please take me out now pleass let it be a nightmare please pleass pleaslee please I want my boyfriend PLEASE someone say something talk to me PLEASE I'm having a fullcking panic attack olesse I can't breathe i can't see I'm crying so much please I want to puke
He's the only thing I have in the world please
He's the only thing I have in the world please
 
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I'm so sorry you're going through this. Are there any shelters in your city just in case?
 
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Cyber4ngel!

Cyber4ngel!

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I'm so sorry you're going through this. Are there any shelters in your city just in case?
Not that I know of and if there are any they surely are worse than the street, I'm from Argentina, I can't do this anymore please I can't anymore
 
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Praestat_Mori

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I'm sorry you have to go through this. But what actually happened? Why your relationship broke up? What did you do? Why did ur BF changed his mind suddenly? I'm sorry I cannot help. But, how old r u?

I understand it really sucks what happened but what about welfare where u live and such stuff?
 
kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

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I'm so sorry. I know how scary and hopeless it feels when this happens. Something similar has happened to me too and I know it can cause you to panic a lot. Is there any way you can talk to him more about the breakup? I know it's important to respect his decision, but since it was so sudden maybe you can ask him to talk to you more about it when you're a little more calm? I'm really sorry. I know it feels like you have nothing left. Maybe at least he can give you some time to find a way to have somewhere to live or get a job first?
 
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Cyber4ngel!

Cyber4ngel!

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I'm sorry you have to go through this. But what actually happened? Why your relationship broke up? What did you do? Why did ur BF changed his mind suddenly? I'm sorry I cannot help. But, how old r u?

I understand it really sucks what happened but what about welfare where u live and such stuff?
He's leaving me because I'm sick and I struggle to do things alone, he said that I cannot love anyone if I can't love myself and that no one will love me

For context I struggle to keep a routine for my meds (I currently have some kind of disease in my kidneys??? But doctors don't know what it is, I'm in pain)

he just grew tired of me bc of my depression and bc I need him to remind me things, and I need reassurance and hugs a lot

Idk not a single thing makes sense rn I'm so exhausted it's almost 7 am I couldn't sleep and he's sleeping peacefully

I'm 18, I dont know anything about there being welfare or shelter or things here and I have a cat, I'm so scared, I made a thread talking about my bf not too long ago
Why do you want his forgiveness?
I want to be loved, I gave everything for him, I dont want him to leave me, I want him to forgive me for being sick, I want him to love me again like when we first met and he wasn't tired of me, I hate being alone, I dont have family and I don't have friends, It was just him and me
I'm so sorry. I know how scary and hopeless it feels when this happens. Something similar has happened to me too and I know it can cause you to panic a lot. Is there any way you can talk to him more about the breakup? I know it's important to respect his decision, but since it was so sudden maybe you can ask him to talk to you more about it when you're a little more calm? I'm really sorry. I know it feels like you have nothing left. Maybe at least he can give you some time to find a way to have somewhere to live or get a job first?
He told me to search for somewhere to live bc he doesn't want to be near me, he thought he loved me and he would always say that he wanted to move out with me and have our own house but it's been two weeks since I moved with him and he couldn't tolerate it anymore, he doesn't like me or my cat anymore, he is irritated with me, he ignores me, he treats me like shit but I still see the man i met for the first time and he was so perfect, I'm so devastated, he doesn't want to give me a chance, he is totally sure of that
I struggle finding a job, and he even told me today that If i can't remember to take my pills that i would never have a house or kids and that I'm unfixable, i have been searching for a job for years and I can't find anything
 
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Praestat_Mori

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Without more accurate info where you live (you don't have to share this in public ofc!) it's quite difficult to support/help you directly. You should contact local authorities who are responsible for welfare where you live.

Edit: Honestly (and I'm much more than double your age), your "friend" isn't a friend at all, not even close to someone who really loves you!
 
isolatedl111

isolatedl111

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Nov 25, 2024
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I can't even write, so this isn't going to be like my other threads that are long, my boyfriend just broke up with me.

I am living with him because I am homeless, I only have enough from my savings to pay for my food and my things, I don't use anything of his.

I have a beautiful cat and I love him; he's living with us.

My boyfriend just broke up with me, he said he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and that I should find a place to live because he's going to kick me out.

I have absolutely no family, and I only have one friend, but it's completely impossible for me to live in her house.

I'm devastated, I'm so scared. I love my boyfriend, I want him to be my boyfriend and forgive me. I spent hours crying and begging him, but it was no use.

I need a safe place for my cat, I don't even have a job, I need to end it now urgently, I don't even want to do it but I can't take this anymore, I can't live without my boyfriend, without my cat, and on the street. Please, someone help, someone say something, do something, please, someone, I beg you, please, please, please, I don't want this, I don't want to end it, I want my boyfriend and my cat, please, I need a safe place, please, there has to be someone, please, help.

Onlyv fkin reason this has good spelling is because I use a translator please kill me please take me out now pleass let it be a nightmare please pleass pleaslee please I want my boyfriend PLEASE someone say something talk to me PLEASE I'm having a fullcking panic attack olesse I can't breathe i can't see I'm crying so much please I want to puke
He's the only thing I have in the world please
He's the only thing I have in the world please
If you're an adult work somewhere and rent a room at a cheap motel or hotel until you're stabilized
 
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savory

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Nov 25, 2024
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Not that I know of and if there are any they surely are worse than the street, I'm from Argentina, I can't do this anymore please I can't anymore

I'm so sorry you're in crisis and feeling frightened. In the US many prefer sleeping on the streets or in tents rather than going to a shelter, it is understandable. That said, please search online for any shelters or crisis centers, they may still be able to help you in some way. Also notify your friend of your situation. I know you feel certain they wouldnt be able to take you in, but what about your cat? Maybe your friend or someone they know would offer to care for them for a while.

As for dealing with your bf in the present time- its important you try to quiet your mind right now, make that your first priority. Try taking some deep breaths, splash your face with some cold water, pet/hold your cat. Keep trying. Perhaps once you're calm you can request your bf give you a little more time so you can make arrangements elsewhere.

I know this is very painful and scary for you, you dont want to be apart from your bf and are dependent on him, and I understand that. I know it hurts and is confusing he could change his plans with you so abruptly. Please know you are worth treating so much better than that, truly. Please try to seek help nearby. I hope things work out and that you'll feel safer than you do and get assistance soon
 
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Cyber4ngel!

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I cant do this anymore
 
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You're strong, you found the strength to come here and talk about it where that in itself is hard enough to do. I'm not sure how long you guys have been together or how long this has been happening, if I could message him I would but sounds like it's pretty irrational to say to just kick you out. You can't just drop feelings for someone like that, someone you truly love.

What's your local area like, do you have any human resources available? Communities that can help in time of crisis?
 
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He told me to search for somewhere to live bc he doesn't want to be near me, he thought he loved me and he would always say that he wanted to move out with me and have our own house but it's been two weeks since I moved with him and he couldn't tolerate it anymore, he doesn't like me or my cat anymore, he is irritated with me, he ignores me, he treats me like shit but I still see the man i met for the first time and he was so perfect, I'm so devastated, he doesn't want to give me a chance, he is totally sure of that
I struggle finding a job, and he even told me today that If i can't remember to take my pills that i would never have a house or kids and that I'm unfixable, i have been searching for a job for years and I can't find ananything
This is terrible. I'm so sorry you have to deal with him not being able to handle you. You're trying your best. And yes I know it is so difficult to find a job especially when you're not doing well mentally and physically. Like others said, I recommend just asking for time to find a place to stay and checking if there are any shelters or community resources. I'm sorry again.
 
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Cherry Crumpet

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May 7, 2018
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This would have to do with where you live, but find out what laws allow eviction. If you are living with him, I think you're considered a tenant. there's a chance he would not be able to evict you for 30 days. Again, this is just related to where I am, but check your local resources. I'm so sorry. I know it's horrible now, but be glad you lost that dead weight. He's not worthy of your precious time.
 
Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

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Feb 13, 2020
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I'm sorry:(

Is it his house? Or is it of you both?
Like @Cherry Crumpet said, be sure to check what your rights are.

I'll send you a link which might be helpful.

I'm very sorry I can't help more .
 
Opera

Opera

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Nov 16, 2024
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I am so sorry. I would help if I could but I don't live where you are. Try finding a homeless shelter even if it's not a great option, it's at least slightly better than nothing.
 
MercenariesofMidgar

MercenariesofMidgar

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Nov 30, 2024
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My lord... I'm so sorry I can't help you, I'm so sorry you're going through this </3
 
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AtLast

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Jul 16, 2018
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I can't even write, so this isn't going to be like my other threads that are long, my boyfriend just broke up with me.

I am living with him because I am homeless, I only have enough from my savings to pay for my food and my things, I don't use anything of his.

I have a beautiful cat and I love him; he's living with us.

My boyfriend just broke up with me, he said he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore and that I should find a place to live because he's going to kick me out.

I have absolutely no family, and I only have one friend, but it's completely impossible for me to live in her house.

I'm devastated, I'm so scared. I love my boyfriend, I want him to be my boyfriend and forgive me. I spent hours crying and begging him, but it was no use.

I need a safe place for my cat, I don't even have a job, I need to end it now urgently, I don't even want to do it but I can't take this anymore, I can't live without my boyfriend, without my cat, and on the street. Please, someone help, someone say something, do something, please, someone, I beg you, please, please, please, I don't want this, I don't want to end it, I want my boyfriend and my cat, please, I need a safe place, please, there has to be someone, please, help.

Onlyv fkin reason this has good spelling is because I use a translator please kill me please take me out now pleass let it be a nightmare please pleass pleaslee please I want my boyfriend PLEASE someone say something talk to me PLEASE I'm having a fullcking panic attack olesse I can't breathe i can't see I'm crying so much please I want to puke
He's the only thing I have in the world please
He's the only thing I have in the world please
Sorry you're going through this. I will say prayers for you and your cat and hope you can get him to forgive you. In the mean time, even if things do get better with him, I'd take it upon myself to come up with a secondary game plan, just in case it happens again. Hang in there!!
 

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