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- Feb 12, 2023
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sharing because it's a little funny and pathetic.
i was going to attempt partial today. for the first, and probably last time in a long time, i'm home alone for a few hours.
anyways, as i was about to do it, i heard my front door opening—it was my brother
my grandmother called him and told him to leave work to get me (his job is like >5 mins away from our house).
apparently, as i was getting everything ready, my grandmother called me like 6 times, left multiple voicemails, and my brother (not the one who came by) called me per her request. i didn't notice the calls because i put my phone away as soon as i woke up. i didn't want to be distracted, i just wanted to go. i guess that was a stupid idea, but it seemed smart in the moment.
btw she just needed me to help her run some errands, nothing really important or crucial. but she made sure to make me feel like shit for not answering. she didn't even ask if i was okay, she just yelled at me for stressing her out because i was about to make her late for an appointment. not surprising tho. throughout my life and childhood, every time she's been made aware of my poor mental health, she just got annoyed and made it about herself. didn't matter if it was me venting/reaching out or a literal doctor expressing their concerns, she just gets pissed off and starts gossiping about it to her friends.
last night was so tough and i didn't really sleep at all, my head is still spinning from that nonsense and i still can't calm down.
the rest of the day will be rough, my arm still hurts and i still feel sick. none of the people i impulsively reached out to last night have responded, but that isn't surprising.
this situation definitely could've been a lot worse. i'll remain grateful, i guess.
i was going to attempt partial today. for the first, and probably last time in a long time, i'm home alone for a few hours.
anyways, as i was about to do it, i heard my front door opening—it was my brother
my grandmother called him and told him to leave work to get me (his job is like >5 mins away from our house).apparently, as i was getting everything ready, my grandmother called me like 6 times, left multiple voicemails, and my brother (not the one who came by) called me per her request. i didn't notice the calls because i put my phone away as soon as i woke up. i didn't want to be distracted, i just wanted to go. i guess that was a stupid idea, but it seemed smart in the moment.
btw she just needed me to help her run some errands, nothing really important or crucial. but she made sure to make me feel like shit for not answering. she didn't even ask if i was okay, she just yelled at me for stressing her out because i was about to make her late for an appointment. not surprising tho. throughout my life and childhood, every time she's been made aware of my poor mental health, she just got annoyed and made it about herself. didn't matter if it was me venting/reaching out or a literal doctor expressing their concerns, she just gets pissed off and starts gossiping about it to her friends.
last night was so tough and i didn't really sleep at all, my head is still spinning from that nonsense and i still can't calm down.
the rest of the day will be rough, my arm still hurts and i still feel sick. none of the people i impulsively reached out to last night have responded, but that isn't surprising.
this situation definitely could've been a lot worse. i'll remain grateful, i guess.
