korra
My bus is late
- Aug 19, 2024
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Since junior high I think of CTB, but i thought i would grow up of it, now after I experience some adulthood and tried many things join the army then left and went to the police(I can't believe I was a fed, I was actively assisting arrests of people like me who posted vent posts on forums and social media, I was sure I was doing the right thing, sorry.) tried to work at the private sector went to college and got a job in the industry quite easily after graduating(most of my college friends are still working at their part-time student jobs)...
Everything seems to work according to plan, I'm actually succeeding my targets in life tho even now after all of this journey I still cannot enjoy life and live happily, im a depressed degenerate dull and empty person got severe metal issues and hardcore addictions, drugs, porn, cigarettes you named it... I have to say those addictions did help me run away for a few years, but now they made matters worse and although I think I would CTB anyway those addictions really helped me cross the line... like I'm unable to go to sleep most of the times if I'm not smoking /playing with myself beforehand....
Anyway my country is in an ongoing conflict so I got drafted as a reserve for the army...
I'm going to be drafted in November doing one week in a military prison and one week at home for 3 months. I live in a place where it is pretty hard to get your hands on a firearm unless you are law enforcement of some sort, so I'm going to have an M16 even while I'm home, I thought about going to some lake at the far north near the border where people were evacuated from I'll be completely alone I'll relax and prepare myself for the right moment.
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Anyway I need your help knowledge and resources, how do I make this through successfully? Like how to properly hold the firearm where do I aim to increase my chances of making it out? Is a firearm more reliable than SN? I believe so but if I'm wrong please inform me, I never heard about SN before joining this forum... Anyway I know I didn't post a lot here but this place helped me to gain some useful information, unfortunately I wasn't able to find much helpful information about my situation... so if you can please suggest advice or link me to useful information, thank you.
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Since junior high I think of CTB, but i thought i would grow up of it, now after I experience some adulthood and tried many things join the army then left and went to the police(I can't believe I was a fed, I was actively assisting arrests of people like me who posted vent posts on forums and social media, I was sure I was doing the right thing, sorry.) tried to work at the private sector went to college and got a job in the industry quite easily after graduating(most of my college friends are still working at their part-time student jobs)...
Everything seems to work according to plan, I'm actually succeeding my targets in life tho even now after all of this journey I still cannot enjoy life and live happily, im a depressed degenerate dull and empty person got severe metal issues and hardcore addictions, drugs, porn, cigarettes you named it... I have to say those addictions did help me run away for a few years, but now they made matters worse and although I think I would CTB anyway those addictions really helped me cross the line... like I'm unable to go to sleep most of the times if I'm not smoking /playing with myself beforehand....
Anyway my country is in an ongoing conflict so I got drafted as a reserve for the army...
I'm going to be drafted in November doing one week in a military prison and one week at home for 3 months. I live in a place where it is pretty hard to get your hands on a firearm unless you are law enforcement of some sort, so I'm going to have an M16 even while I'm home, I thought about going to some lake at the far north near the border where people were evacuated from I'll be completely alone I'll relax and prepare myself for the right moment.
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Anyway I need your help knowledge and resources, how do I make this through successfully? Like how to properly hold the firearm where do I aim to increase my chances of making it out? Is a firearm more reliable than SN? I believe so but if I'm wrong please inform me, I never heard about SN before joining this forum... Anyway I know I didn't post a lot here but this place helped me to gain some useful information, unfortunately I wasn't able to find much helpful information about my situation... so if you can please suggest advice or link me to useful information, thank you.
