Planning on doing it tomorrow night.

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

NYE seems like a good time to go. 2023 was the worst year ive ever experienced and I dont think I wanna see 2024. Once I get off work tonight, im cleaning all the food and garbage out of my disgusting fucking room, changing my sheets and pillow cases for the first time in 6 months, and prepping my drugs. Id rather not leave that for my mom to do after im gone. I have 2 friends. One, I consider to be close but he never reaches out to make plans or anything. If one of my friends reaches out tomorrow and invites me to a party or to hangout or something, ill postpone killing myself but I know thats not going to happen. The loneliness today is already crushing and will be about as bad as it gets tomorrow knowing ive been deprived of my youth and all of the fun experiences that come with it. People will be out drinking together, laughing, having a new years kiss, and ill just be alone in my room like usual.

Ill be using the following:

250 mg heroin/fentanyl
40 mg bromazolam
4.2 g Pain-O-Soma
1 L Vodka

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Good luck with everything, I hope you find peace.

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

Good luck with everything, I hope you find peace.

Thank you

 

[StaringIntoAnAbyss]

May you find peace in your decision, if you want to talk or something you can dm me

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I wish you luck and peace,

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

May you find peace in your decision, if you want to talk or something you can dm me

Thank you thats very kind.

I wish you luck and peace,

Thank you

 

[LoiteringClouds]

NYE seems like a good time to go. 2023 was the worst year ive ever experienced and I dont think I wanna see 2024.

Hello @lopsidedcrawdad1,
It seems that you're so done.
You've freed from a psych ward -
Now peace will be an award.

You're on a heaven-bound yacht,
Which you've desperately sought.
Peace is real, not a mirage -
@lopsidedcrawdad1, bon voyage

 

[new2blue]

Per ardua ad astra. I hope you find peace.

 

[sleepy10]

Sending you all of the love

 

[Novacaine]

What method are you using to consume the H/F ?

 

[Gonnerr]

Me too 2023 was hell almost everyday , i hope 2024 will be better , if not...SN

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

Per ardua ad astra. I hope you find peace.

Thank you

Sending you all of the love

Thank you

What method are you using to consume the H/F ?

I will be snorting the h/f. I have bromazolam powder so I will just dump as much as I can under my tongue as I can since its water soluble then take the rest in capsules.

Me too 2023 was hell almost everyday , i hope 2024 will be better , if not...SN

I hope it gets better for you as well.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I wish this NYE, a giant meteor would drop from the sky instead of that stupid worthless ball.

 

[breezeboy]

I'll be thinking of you. Good luck with everything

 

[wanttodie]

Good luck with everything

 

[rozeske]

Good luck with everything and whatever you decide I hope you find your peace

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

Thank you everyone for the kind words.

 

[huphup]

Good luck. I hope you find what you want without pain and peacefully.

 

[Suspect_Device]

That sounds like a pretty good way to go, I'm kind of jealous of your supplies.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace, safe travels and good luck!

 

[zel]

I don't know what time zone you are, but if you want somebody to spend the New Years with, I'd be down to get in a call and chat so it isn't so lonely. Misery loves company and all that.. Don't be shy to pm me by the way, I'm dead serious.

 

[Novacaine]

I will be snorting the h/f. I have bromazolam powder so I will just dump as much as I can under my tongue as I can since its water soluble then take the rest in capsules.

Are you taking the bromazolam before snorting ? Also idk if you have tried it yet but bromazolam tasted horrible imo .
Doubt I could put it under my tongue

 

[hopeless08]

NYE seems like a good time to go. 2023 was the worst year ive ever experienced and I dont think I wanna see 2024. Once I get off work tonight, im cleaning all the food and garbage out of my disgusting fucking room, changing my sheets and pillow cases for the first time in 6 months, and prepping my drugs. Id rather not leave that for my mom to do after im gone. I have 2 friends. One, I consider to be close but he never reaches out to make plans or anything. If one of my friends reaches out tomorrow and invites me to a party or to hangout or something, ill postpone killing myself but I know thats not going to happen. The loneliness today is already crushing and will be about as bad as it gets tomorrow knowing ive been deprived of my youth and all of the fun experiences that come with it. People will be out drinking together, laughing, having a new years kiss, and ill just be alone in my room like usual.

Ill be using the following:

250 mg heroin/fentanyl
40 mg bromazolam
4.2 g Pain-O-Soma
1 L Vodka

Good luck I hope everything goes smoothly and you get the peace you deserve.

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

Are you taking the bromazolam before snorting ? Also idk if you have tried it yet but bromazolam tasted horrible imo .
Doubt I could put it under my tongue

Real bromaz is tasteless. When trying to imitate alprazolam, some people will add a cut to make it taste bitter.

 

[Novacaine]

Real bromaz is tasteless. When trying to imitate alprazolam, some people will add a cut to make it taste bitter.

Didn't know that. Goodluck, hope you find what you want. This method looks promising

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

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Didn't know that. Goodluck, hope you find what you want. This method looks promising

Thank you. Feeling okay right now and have no idea if ill be able to follow through with it later but I know the loneliness will kick in later tonight.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this. I hope you find peace.

 

[Tears in Rain]

Good luck on that last leg of the journey.

 

[Catch-22]

I hope you find the peace that you're looking for

 

[spacehardware]

Hope the bus ride goes smoothly, I'll be thinking of you.