Help Plan on ending it this week, have questions. (SN)

[Moonicide]

So this is my regimen:



My question is if Gabapentin / Trazodone is okay to use as it can relax you and make you drowsy. And is there any advice you can give me before I go through with it? I'm also currently on Lamictal for mental health reasons. Should I stop taking it?

 

[Stan]

Check drug interactions with this

Drug Interaction Checker – Check for Interactions Between Prescription Medications

Use WebMD’s Drug Interaction Checker tool to find and identify potentially harmful and unsafe combinations of prescription medications by entering two or more drugs in question.

www.webmd.com

 

[Moonicide]

Check drug interactions with this

Drug Interaction Checker – Check for Interactions Between Prescription Medications

Use WebMD’s Drug Interaction Checker tool to find and identify potentially harmful and unsafe combinations of prescription medications by entering two or more drugs in question.

www.webmd.com

Thank you. It seems like the combo will be fine. My question is when should I take these?
After Tagament + Meclizine?

 

[Stan]

Are you certain that one tablespoon is 25gm? I don't know much about those drugs. Are they something you rake everyday as part of your normal treatment?

 

[Moonicide]

Are you certain that one tablespoon is 25gm? I don't know much about those drugs. Are they something you rake everyday as part of your normal treatment?

Ooh. I'm not good about these things either. But the 25gm was referring to Sodium Nitrite. I tried convert it and it told me it would be a tablespoon.

 

[SuperSid]

Compare your notes with this https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-an-aquarium-testing-kit-rough-version.18188/
Don't eat 24 hours before. Also keep a bucket or tub nearby in case of nausea. Maybe wear a nappy just to be safe.
Good luck and I hope you arrive at an outcome you are happy with. This is a hard decision and I hope your suffering comes to an end as SN does guarantee relief. Just be sure it is right for you as other forms of relief are out there and may allow you to work through this with your life still intact. If you do not want your life and you have resolved to using SN that is also fine. Think it over and do not rush it, you may as well be comfortable. You owe it to yourself in your final moments.
Thinking of your family (if there is anyone). Maybe leave a letter?

 

[Stan]

Don't eat 24 hours before.

Why 24 hours?

 

[SuperSid]

To be on the safe side. I am not sure how safe 12 hours is.

 

[Stan]

To be on the safe side. I am not sure how safe 12 hours is.

I'd be interested to hear the logic behind that. Not even major surgery requires you to have a 24 hour fast before the anaesthetic

 

[TowerUpright]

8 hours would likely be fine for foods. Sips of water / clear fluids would be ok too, if it wasn't anything crazy. Stay away from Milkshakes and gin and Tonics.

 

[SoupSnakes]

Fasting guidelines say you can drink clear fluids up to an hour before hand now

 

[Meant2Die]

I don't claim to know precisely how much SN would a tablespoon provide (esp, US since Im in the US), but here is what I do know:

- 1 US Tablespoon is marked as 15g for dry contents (generally speaking) , 1 US teaspoon = 5g (I always thought of doing 1TB + 2x TS of SN to equal 25g)
- This site someone had found shows weight per tablespoon and teaspoon of ground SN (see pics below)
1 tablespoon = 17.76g
1 teaspoon =5.92g (not sure if those are heaping or not, but prob not)


- In this instructional video from the Nov2019 Pph Dr. N measures out 25g of SN on a scale and it looks a lot more than I anticipated. His scale maxes out at 20g, so he first does that (which is the amount you see in the small cup which is on the scale) then he moves that over to the big beaker and then he measures out an additional 5g and adds it into the big beaker (which is the 2nd pic)

I don't know if this helps at all, but for me it would to visually see it.

 

[Moonicide]

Compare your notes with this https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-an-aquarium-testing-kit-rough-version.18188/
Don't eat 24 hours before. Also keep a bucket or tub nearby in case of nausea. Maybe wear a nappy just to be safe.
Good luck and I hope you arrive at an outcome you are happy with. This is a hard decision and I hope your suffering comes to an end as SN does guarantee relief. Just be sure it is right for you as other forms of relief are out there and may allow you to work through this with your life still intact. If you do not want your life and you have resolved to using SN that is also fine. Think it over and do not rush it, you may as well be comfortable. You owe it to yourself in your final moments.
Thinking of your family (if there is anyone). Maybe leave a letter?

I actually have been writing letters for my virtual friends and I'm going to write one out for my mom. The thing is, I'm hesitant to send the letters to my online friends. I don't have someone reliable to give them to without them trying to intervene. So I'm kind of conflicted about that, because I do want to leave a letter behind for them too.

I don't claim to know precisely how much SN would a tablespoon provide (esp, US since Im in the US), but here is what I do know:

- 1 US Tablespoon is marked as 15g for dry contents (generally speaking) , 1 US teaspoon = 5g (I always thought of doing 1TB + 2x TS of SN to equal 25g)
- This site someone had found shows weight per tablespoon and teaspoon of ground SN (see pics below)
1 tablespoon = 17.76g
1 teaspoon =5.92g (not sure if those are heaping or not, but prob not)
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- In this instructional video from the Nov2019 Pph Dr. N measures out 25g of SN on a scale and it looks a lot more than I anticipated. His scale maxes out at 20g, so he first does that (which is the amount you see in the small cup which is on the scale) then he moves that over to the big beaker and then he measures out an additional 5g and adds it into the big beaker (which is the 2nd pic)

I don't know if this helps at all, but for me it would to visually see it.
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Thank you for this! Is there a video of this? Or is it included in the MEGA download?

 

[Meant2Die]

Thank you for this! Is there a video of this? Or is it included in the MEGA download?

The video is in the Nov2019 online edition of the PpH (which I have access to). The version in the resouces is from March, so I don't think so, but I haven't checked.

 

[Moonicide]

The video is in the Nov2019 online edition of the PpH (which I have access to). The version in the resouces is from March, so I don't think so, but I haven't checked.

Are you able to share it by any chance?
(Totally okay if you can't.)

 

[Meant2Die]

Are you able to share it by any chance?
(Totally okay if you can't.)

I wouldn't know how other than giving up the username/password , which i can't do :( Sorry.

 

[Fragile]

i don't think that gabepentin will have any negative effect, it is a calcium chanel blocker with anxiolitic effects and very few, if any, major drug interactions.

in a way it works like a benzodiazepine, many people choose to take benzos before SN to be calmed and relaxed, then drowsy before the side effects of SN like headaches and tachycardia.

plus it has anticonvulsant properties and is used to treat some kind of seizures so that may also come in handy.

 

[SuperSid]

I actually have been writing letters for my virtual friends and I'm going to write one out for my mom. The thing is, I'm hesitant to send the letters to my online friends. I don't have someone reliable to give them to without them trying to intervene. So I'm kind of conflicted about that, because I do want to leave a letter behind for them too.

What if you PM someone reliable on this forum and they can send the letters to your friends after you ctb. If you have your friends email addresses, text / scanned documents could be forwarded. I understand this is risky though. I think it will help them accept your choice and cope better dealing with the aftermath if you leave something behind for them. You sound sweet though. I hope you find your happiness

 

[MeltingHeart]

I don't claim to know precisely how much SN would a tablespoon provide (esp, US since Im in the US), but here is what I do know:

- 1 US Tablespoon is marked as 15g for dry contents (generally speaking) , 1 US teaspoon = 5g (I always thought of doing 1TB + 2x TS of SN to equal 25g)
- This site someone had found shows weight per tablespoon and teaspoon of ground SN (see pics below)
1 tablespoon = 17.76g
1 teaspoon =5.92g (not sure if those are heaping or not, but prob not)
View attachment 19871View attachment 19872

- In this instructional video from the Nov2019 Pph Dr. N measures out 25g of SN on a scale and it looks a lot more than I anticipated. His scale maxes out at 20g, so he first does that (which is the amount you see in the small cup which is on the scale) then he moves that over to the big beaker and then he measures out an additional 5g and adds it into the big beaker (which is the 2nd pic)

I don't know if this helps at all, but for me it would to visually see it.
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that really does look like such a lot! 50ml is such a small amount of water!

 

[BPD_LE]

that really does look like such a lot! 50ml is such a small amount of water!

It does doesn't it! I guess it won't look so daunting once it's all dissolved in the water though.

 

[MeltingHeart]

It does doesn't it! I guess it won't look so daunting once it's all dissolved in the water though.

Hope not it must be way more soluble than sea salt- no way that much sea salt would dissolve in so little water- esp. not hot.

 

[Roger]

I would not have thought that the volume of water is crucial.
It's the amount of SN that counts.
The water is just a neutral carrier to get the SN into the stomach.
Just enough water to dissolve the SN should be enough.

 

[Meant2Die]

that really does look like such a lot! 50ml is such a small amount of water!

It does doesn't it! I guess it won't look so daunting once it's all dissolved in the water though.

So In the vidéo he uses a machine to mix the Sn in the water, not a spoon. After adding water, He places the big beaker on this platform and puts a magnetic pill looking object into the solution. Then he turns on the machine which shakes the platform slightly, and the vibration causes the magnetic pill to jump around quickly mixing the solution really well and dissolving all the SN perfectly. Obv it's not expected for us to have that machine, but it does show that with enough mixing the SN can be completely dissolved.

 

[MeltingHeart]

So In the vidéo he uses a machine to mix the Sn in the water, not a spoon. After adding water, He places the big beaker on this platform and puts a magnetic pill looking object into the solution. Then he turns on the machine which shakes the platform slightly, and the vibration causes the magnetic pill to jump around quickly mixing the solution really well and dissolving all the SN perfectly. Obv it's not expected for us to have that machine, but it does show that with enough mixing the SN can be completely dissolved.

wish I had his set up!

 

[BPD_LE]

So In the vidéo he uses a machine to mix the Sn in the water, not a spoon. After adding water, He places the big beaker on this platform and puts a magnetic pill looking object into the solution. Then he turns on the machine which shakes the platform slightly, and the vibration causes the magnetic pill to jump around quickly mixing the solution really well and dissolving all the SN perfectly. Obv it's not expected for us to have that machine, but it does show that with enough mixing the SN can be completely dissolved.

Meh, I'll get a whisk!

 

[EBEN30]

The video is in the Nov2019 online edition of the PpH (which I have access to). The version in the resouces is from March, so I don't think so, but I haven't checked.

Is sharing of the updated PPH allowed, would love to see an up to date copy?

@Moonicide I hope all goes to plan for you and whatever you choose to do provides you with the comfort you're looking for.

 

[Stan]

Meh, I'll get a whisk!

This will be me

 

[BPD_LE]

This will be me

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I'm going one step further. Can't risk failure

 

[noctiva]

The shopping list for SN is getting out of hand, now we need a magnetic stirrer too? :)
No worries, it will dissolve with a spoon, with a whisk, with a blender, with a shaker or with a magnetic stirrer. Clockwise and counter-clockwise stirring should both lead to satisfactory results.

 

[MeltingHeart]

The shopping list for SN is getting out of hand, now we need a magnetic stirrer too? :)
No worries, it will dissolve with a spoon, with a whisk, with a blender, with a shaker or with a magnetic stirrer. Clockwise and counter-clockwise stirring should both lead to satisfactory results.

Yeah not to mentions all the aquarium stuff to test it too! Wish the pet shop would just sell N instead that would be SO much easier.