Discussion Plan on Ctb tomorrow night

[William Barker]

Hello, all. I haven't been on this site for very long, and assuming that all goes according to plan, tomorrow will be my last night.

I feel that I have done my homework sufficiently enough on the SN method. But just in case, here goes:

A few hours before my attempt, I will test the SN with my blood, making sure it turns a dark chocolate brown.

Fast for at least 8 hours.

25gm in 50ml of water (guess tap is good enough).

I have measuring cups and spoons.

Use mouthwash to numb my tastebuds beforehand.

Take a mint afterwards.

Make a back up cup or two just in case I somehow vomit it all up, even though I can still ctb anyway, regardless of vomiting.

Lie down and wait to die.

I have several windows pulled up just for reference, including Stan's guide, but if I've forgotten something or you have something to add, please do. I never claimed to be perfect. Far from it in face.

 

[whereispeace]

Good luck. Regardless of what happens, I hope you find peace. My SN arrived today, so I may join you eventually.

 

[William Barker]

Good luck. Regardless of what happens, I hope you find peace. My SN arrived today, so I may join you eventually.

Sure, let's grab a beer or something in the afterlife. I'd like that.

And to quote Peter Pan: "To die will be an awfully big adventure."

 

[William Barker]

Update: Since I have to fast tomorrow, I've chosen to have meatball subs as my last real meal.

I've been watching Supernatural to pass the time and I plan on watching a few of my favorite movies one more time.

 

[one4all]

@William Barker
You're just using SN with out any other meds?

 

[William Barker]

@William Barker
You're just using SN with out any other meds?

Correct. May take some tums half an hour beforehand though.

 

[one4all]

Correct. May take some tums half an hour beforehand though.

I wish you luck and a peaceful journey.

 

[William Barker]

I wish you luck and a peaceful journey.

Thank you. I appreciate that. I plan on continuing to update this thread up to my very last breath tomorrow for all those interested.

 

[Rockman]

I wish you find peace.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Ill burn a little candle, hope it will guide you to love and warmth..

 

[Rockman]

What lead you to this decision?

 

[William Barker]

What lead you to this decision?

The loss of everything good in my life to sum it up.

Poisenedjuliet knows the full story. And Taran knows just about everything.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry life brought uou to this point and I hope you have exhausted all other options to be happy.

 

[Deathwish1968]

Wish you a peaceful transition and hope you find lots of love on the other side.

 

[Donk]

wish you a peaceful journey my friend.

 

[William Barker]

"There is a moment in time
When all the cards that you've played divide
You feel the temperature dive
And all your demons inside come crashing through"

 

[Donk]

Hello, all. I haven't been on this site for very long, and assuming that all goes according to plan, tomorrow will be my last night.

I feel that I have done my homework sufficiently enough on the SN method. But just in case, here goes:

A few hours before my attempt, I will test the SN with my blood, making sure it turns a dark chocolate brown.

Fast for at least 8 hours.

25gm in 50ml of water (guess tap is good enough).

I have measuring cups and spoons.

Use mouthwash to numb my tastebuds beforehand.

Take a mint afterwards.

Make a back up cup or two just in case I somehow vomit it all up, even though I can still ctb anyway, regardless of vomiting.

Lie down and wait to die.

I have several windows pulled up just for reference, including Stan's guide, but if I've forgotten something or you have something to add, please do. I never claimed to be perfect. Far from it in face.

how about painkillers? you can get it anywhere. might as well

 

[William Barker]

how about painkillers? you can get it anywhere. might as well

Don't want to wait much longer. Besides, I don't think it'll be all that bad.

 

[Ulisses]

Good luck and peace

 

[applegreenicecream]

Mouthwash to numb. That's interesting. I've not come across that before. Listerine is a killer on the tongue. Might also do that when the time comes to SN.
Your lack of pain killers or sleep inducing meds is making me nervous for you though.

 

[William Barker]

Mouthwash to numb. That's interesting. I've not come across that before. Listerine is a killer on the tongue. Might also do that when the time comes to SN.
Your lack of pain killers or sleep inducing meds is making me nervous for you though.

"Some people use a strong mouthwash to numb their tongue and tastebuds before or after drinking the SN. Or a small piece of confectionery to remove the taste afterwards."

Straight from Ryan's guide.

 

[muffin222]

Best of luck to you and safe travels

 

[President_Drist]

Hey William,

How are you? Sad that u came to this point. Did u really tryed everything to feel better?

 

[William Barker]

Hey William,

How are you? Sad that u came to this point. Did u really tryed everything to feel better?

I figure finally ending everything will make me feel better...

 

[William Barker]

Update: feeling kind of lonely. Just watching more supernatural.

My wife is talking to me again, but she's being a bitch. Ugh. I don't want to jump through hoops anymore. I don't want to save my marriage anymore.

Maybe she'll pull that stick out of her ass after I'm gone.

I just don't have any fight left in me. Just no. Let her and the kiddo make due without me.

 

[LilBird]

Update: feeling kind of lonely. Just watching more supernatural.

My wife is talking to me again, but she's being a bitch. Ugh. I don't want to jump through hoops anymore. I don't want to save my marriage anymore.

Maybe she'll pull that stick out of her ass after I'm gone.

I just don't have any fight left in me. Just no. Let her and the kiddo make due without me.

I feel you.. I plan on heading out tonight.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

I figure finally ending everything will make me feel better...

Remember you won't feel anything anymore once you CTB (: stay safe my friend, lots of love

 

[LilBird]

Update: feeling kind of lonely. Just watching more supernatural.

My wife is talking to me again, but she's being a bitch. Ugh. I don't want to jump through hoops anymore. I don't want to save my marriage anymore.

Maybe she'll pull that stick out of her ass after I'm gone.

I just don't have any fight left in me. Just no. Let her and the kiddo make due without me.

Everything feels hopeless and like you have absolutely nothing left in you.

 

[William Barker]

I feel you.. I plan on heading out tonight.

You can talk to me if you want. I'll keep you company.

 

[LilBird]

You can talk to me if you want. I'll keep you company.

What's your plan