
ccoki17
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- May 30, 2025
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so precious
I just wanted to update on my pup. I know I probably sounded like a monster, talking about being overwhelmed and unable to handle her. But she is a year and a half now and the light of my life. I wouldn't have lived through loosing Ellie without her. Without her shenanigans forcing me out of bed, I'd never have gotten out of bed. Please dont think shes unloved. She is my entire world. I got out of my funk after a couple months. But I still have fear though. Now that ive lost before I catch myself thinking about how im gonna loose her too one day, and I find it fucking devastating. Shes young enough now that I can still push those thoughts away somewhat easily, but im terrified. I dont want to go through that again. But please everyone, dont think me a monster. I love this precious baby. My husband says I'm obsessed actuallyThank you for your kind words. I had covid for a week and was sleeping on the couch so my husband wouldn't get sick. Then the foster mom called us 3 days sooner than planned saying we needed to get the pup, while I had covid. So then it's sleeping on the couch for another week so I could watch the pup in the living room, making sure she's going out the dog door to potty and not tearing stuff up. So I was sick and exhausted, which is a HUGE trigger that makes my depression worse. I had a bit of a meltdown for a few days.
I won't lie, I still don't love her like I loved my sweet Ellie, but I do love this little pup. She's so innocent and such a happy little girl. She has been doing well potty training, maybe just 1-2 accidents a day, and considering how many times the pup poops and pees that's quite the accomplishment lol My other dog has fallen in love with her, and watching them play brings my heart such joy. My boy hadn't had a playmate in 3 years because of Ellies paralysis. His happiness makes me feel so much better about getting her.
Her name is Cirilla, and she is a deaf, double merle, Australian shepard that's 10 weeks old. She was brought to the rescue by a vet. The shitty breeder brought her and her brother to the vet saying "someone kill these little shits cause I can't sell them", because their deaf. Breeding double merles is terrible, and it's been known since the early 2000s, that breeding 2 merle colored dogs gives a 25% chance of deaf and/or blind pups. Her and her brother are only deaf. Her poor brother has already been adopted and returned, but I just don't have the time or resources for 3 dogs. I can't believe someone wanted to murder such sweet and precious babies just because they're deaf.
they were originally my brothers rabbits which he forced my parents to get because it was his "enemy year" and he needed to redeem himself or smth - anyways its been 6 months and he doesnt even look at them and now my mum says they're my responsibility but i love them anyways even though theyre like an unwanted pregnancymy rabbits just got neutered