compulsoryaliveness
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- Oct 6, 2024
- 62
It's better when it just says the same, apathy and despair. A feeling of complete distrust in other people, and an unwavering self-hatred.
After a recent shift from this concrete zone of doom and despair, only to be rehardened into it, I feel worse off.
It's like all the acceptance I had done to be fine with being a nothing person has to be rethought about.
I feel bad that I'm a fuck up again. I preferred when it was clear there was no other option. I don't want relief from this, on occasion, at random.
I prefer to stay suffering, where reality is.
After a recent shift from this concrete zone of doom and despair, only to be rehardened into it, I feel worse off.
It's like all the acceptance I had done to be fine with being a nothing person has to be rethought about.
I feel bad that I'm a fuck up again. I preferred when it was clear there was no other option. I don't want relief from this, on occasion, at random.
I prefer to stay suffering, where reality is.
